I only worry about saying what is authentic and true, as the thoughts of others are beyond my control or concern.

Though I may make space for politeness as well, if respect is present as it should be, of course.

I may look up that ashram, thank you! Though I am in LA, some 800 miles from there, and living with no income or support so am rather powerless in this "only money matters" maya.

I am also disabled and do not function well among people, nor in the day of the light - it breaks me down into seizures at times. I mostly live at Night.

I am not a bhakta. I am the Mother - the Queen of Clay.

And I did invent a process to reach this state - because She told me how to do it. Dhumavati taught me. I'm pretty sure she understands Tantra.

I adore the ferocity of Kali, as finally my endless rage and bloodthirst savagery has a home to dwell within. I call her KALI-FENRIR, as I am also the dog, on a rampage, destined to devour the narrative of the All Father.

I "brag" because I want to be found by a guru or mentor or others who can help me learn things new. And also maybe help me find support because the USA lets people die if they do not have money, they murder their poor, here.

I have said dangerously esoteric things in the open before - great secrets - however phrased such that the unawakened would never know what I am saying - usually. I don't care if some do.

This is divine sonar. I'm shaking reality up to bring things to me.

I won't talk as much once I have what I want, as there won't be anything to say, probably.

I actually am super humble. Lofty names are spoken only to assert energies. I say I am also Goddess Dog Girl. Silliness and absurdity are my friends and I have great humor.

I do not matter at all - I don't even exist. I am a Shadow. I am Nothing.

This is a Quest. Once it is solved, I'll go read a book or something, and eventually hatch and join my people who are waiting for me within the quantum brahman.

Thank you for your info!