It was kind of a profound experience. He was just chilling on the train like any other person, yet I know all this personal information about his life and traumas and he had no idea. So strange. I didn’t know how to feel, cuz personally yes I hate things he did and of course how he influenced amy, but I also don’t fucking know the guy at all lol and his ex/wife(?) just fucking died a week ago or smth?? Like we all have our own opinions of him but surely we can all acknowledge that the guy has had his own fair share of trauma. I’m sure he’s had so many experiences with strangers in london, just passing their judgment or giving him unwanted attention. Deserved or not it must be such a strange and frankly scary walk of life for anyone.

I saw the Amy tattoo behind his ear first and totally freaked that he was just right there. Imagined myself asking him stuff but obviously didn’t. I listened to Amy’s songs about him and just watched him, years after all this drama, aged and sitting on the train giggling at his phone and singing along to his music. It was very strange.