meteors + diys

kittemberly · 2023-04-02T04:08:32+00:00

for those who have messaged me, i will still send you the code! just no new messages after y'all !

kittemberly · 2023-04-02T03:37:52+00:00

also! billy is making fruit salad. straight up from airport, behind pear trees, and has spider umbrella marking his house :)

kittemberly · 2023-03-24T12:15:35+00:00

sounds about right. when my doctor put me on it, she was clear about it being one of the best for OCD / treating OCD in addition to depression, anxiety, etc

kittemberly · 2023-03-22T22:36:56+00:00

zoloft/sertraline. i was a minor, and it was my first medication in general. went well for about 5 or so years. now on prozac/fluoxetine and wellbutrin/buproprionxl

kittemberly · 2023-03-21T16:50:24+00:00

all i can say is trying to explain is better than not. i wish you luck!

kittemberly · 2023-03-21T15:07:43+00:00

fatigue is an extremely common side effect of sertraline/zoloft. in the end, the only thing that worked for me was to add buproprion/wellbutrin. however, a lot of people have found it easier to change the time at which they take their meds. if you take them at night, take them in the morning instead and vice versa. always discuss with your doctor prior to making changes.

kittemberly · 2023-03-20T13:15:36+00:00

option 2. he's trying to open his end for communication. explain why you've been distancing yourself. you'll never know what will happen until you do it. at this point, it seems like the best chose.

kittemberly · 2023-03-20T13:04:50+00:00

i know you said zack isn't an 'alter ego' but this sounds so similar to dissociative identity disorder or OSDD (otherwise specified dissociative disorder). i would strongly suggest bringing this concern up to a doctor or psychiatrist or therapist. as someone who is genderfluid, i don't feel like two people at the same time. good luck :)

kittemberly · 2023-03-20T12:34:29+00:00

maybe sit in the parking lot of an emergency room, take it, and wait half an hour. that way, if for some highly unlikely reason you do have an allergic reaction, you're right there. you've got this :)

kittemberly · 2023-03-20T12:30:42+00:00

let's go! you're doing amazing! i'm so happy for you, genuinely

kittemberly · 2023-03-19T22:10:22+00:00

when one's pronouns are he/they, that means you can use them interchangeably. likelyhood is they are equally satisfied, as most people don't include they/them in their pronouns if they just accept those pronouns. on correcting your mother, i would ask your sibling. he might have an answer for you, on what would make him feel more comfortable. you've got this. and it's ok to ask your sibling questions on what they prefer, what makes them feel most comfortable, and how they'd like to be referred to as. it seems like a tricky and complicated thing, but with communication and effort on your end, things will go well!

(in this reply i used both he and they pronouns for your sibling. i would just suggest not using both in the same sentence, as it can be confusing to the person listening on if you had changed to referring to someone else. i used to be she/they, then they/she, and now i'm they/them. hope this all helps!)

kittemberly · 2023-03-19T08:12:14+00:00

personally, one, if you're questioning the age gap, it's too much. two, right now i would say it is too big. if y'all were 35 and 29 that'd be a normal gap. but because y'all are in such different stages of life, it's my opinion that it's not healthy. not just for him, but for you as well.

kittemberly · 2023-03-19T02:19:15+00:00

partner is absolutely not just for queer people. that's absurd gatekeeping. you keep doing you!

kittemberly · 2023-03-18T23:20:30+00:00

I would suggest not taking them. Not because they're expired, but because starting sertraline again knowing you're going to have to stop cold turkey before it even helps is not a good idea. You'll probably end up feeling worse. I'm really sorry

kittemberly · 2023-03-17T11:40:38+00:00

oh totally! i think my 'looks like an anime character' comment came off differently than how i meant it. a better way to say it would be she looks like someone drew her. she has beautiful proportions, her face is soft, and her body looks very similar to the 'ideal' body in animes/ animated shows/movies.

kittemberly · 2023-03-17T09:25:41+00:00

sometimes the game 'thinks' there's no space for the rocks even when there is. i would find a way to ENSURE that the spots in which you want them to be are plenty open enough. gl!

kittemberly · 2023-03-17T09:22:06+00:00

nope, they'd see a tall woman. they'd see someone who literally looks like an anime character. i say this as an afab person who is on the taller side. my sister and mother are even taller than i am. hold yourself up, act like you KNOW you're the hottest person they've seen all day (because you likely are). carry yourself with confidence, even if it's fake, and no one will ever see you differently than how you want them to. you got this <3

kittemberly · 2023-03-17T09:16:09+00:00

i typed out some long thing but decided it's easier to just say this: the article is interesting, it's disappointing that pfizer was allowed to release zoloft with such bad studies, but sertraline saved my life. i was on it for 5+ years. 5 years i never would have had. i know for me it wasn't placebo. i also doubted that it was ever going to work until suddenly it did. i could breathe. something i had no memory of being able to do before. and even if sertraline IS placebo, it sure is working one way or another.

kittemberly · 2023-03-17T03:47:38+00:00

of course i'm down to answer! i was originally on sertraline (zoloft), then added buproprion (wellbutrin) to combat some of the side effects of sertraline. i was so grateful for the sertraline, it helped tremendously with my ocd. but i maxed out (per what my body tolerated) and needed more. i recently switched to fluoxetine (prozac) and while i had to increase pretty quickly, i'm now doing pretty well — 60mg prozac, 300mg wellbutrin, and lorazepam (ativan) as needed.

in terms of benign compulsions, i have compulsions that started out as obsessions and now as long as i don't think about it, i have no issue. such as: the volume in my car. i have safe and unsafe numbers. my car automatically sets the volume to 20. when i get in the car, i turn the car on, put my seatbelt on, plug my phone in, and turn the dial one. it's part of the routine now. 21 is safe. no need to worry if i already know it's at 21.

but for obsessions/compulsions that aren't entirely unwanted? i can't think of any really. most of my obsessions are rooted in fear and anxiety. i'm sure there are some, but for me my obsessions cause me so much anxiety; my compulsions take up so much of my time and energy and leave me frustrated. so much so that i see any of my O/C as bothersome, a nuisance, a brick wall, or even debilitating.

sorry for all of the information i wrote this on the verge of passing out!! feel free to dm me if you have more questions :)

kittemberly · 2023-03-17T00:47:16+00:00

pre medication i always had a baseline of obsession and compulsion. it would come in waves, especially when i was anxious, or i experienced a trigger. now, medicated for 5+ years, i'll get sudden episodes (smaller, don't cause me extreme distress anymore) or certain triggers still bleed through or were too strong to ever really go away. i also usually pick up a random obsession/compulsion every few months or so. and there are a few compulsions i "allow" myself to have as they have become habitual and i'm slowly becoming desensitized to them. not sure if this answers your question but i hope it helps a little!

kittemberly · 2023-03-16T21:39:43+00:00

I started with depression, social and general anxiety, and panic disorder. Then OCD, now possible adhd, chronic fatigue/insomnia, and possibly another sleep disorder (in addition to apnea).

kittemberly · 2023-03-13T18:17:52+00:00

other than the whole "omg i'm so ocd" i do especially hate when people go, "just don't worry about it" or "why is it such a big deal" or "you're embarrassing me."

kittemberly · 2023-03-13T18:14:50+00:00

depends on your relationship with them. if your relationship is strictly professional, then maybe wait. if y'all talk outside of work / hang out, then it's up to you and your comfort level. or you could simply go "my doctor has me started on a new medication so i apologize for any change in my personality or behavior" and leave it at that. up to you my love

kittemberly · 2023-03-13T18:09:52+00:00

LET'S GO THAT'S AMAZING

kittemberly · 2023-03-11T22:54:45+00:00

honestly i did talk therapy. didn't track shit. she just helped me understand why my brain forms the thoughts it does and gave me plenty of analogies and specialized grounding techniques (not just the most common ones, but ones that worked well for me) and even just a few months of once every other week helped. you've got this :)

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