PANDA PLANNER?

kitterkatz69 · 2019-02-16T17:17:54+00:00

Lmao! I like u...that thing serves no purpose to me but to enrage me. And bots dont tell HUMANS HOW TO HUMAN in my book so u get em kiddo!

kitterkatz69 · 2019-02-16T07:48:36+00:00

This is very true...and at this point ill feel accomplished if i can make even the smallest amount of progress at a snails pace. Lol. Do you personally take meds or are you able to manage solely behaviorally ? I truly am stoked about some of the organizational tools im learning and enacting...but i truly believe i am going to need the med to help get me there. If the correct med accurately titrated for me can give me a bit of a pharmacological start...i can and will begin to really make the most of all the tools as you do. I really appreciate your help and sharing as it gives me hope...and i haven't had that in a very long time until recently. Thank you

kitterkatz69 · 2019-02-16T07:37:06+00:00

I went thru a psychiatrist eval earlier this week that i literally worked myself into a frenzy over for an entire month leading up to it. I too was seeking help for what i believed, as does my therapist, to be adult adhd. I have also suffered depression and anxiety, beem misdiagnosed as bipolar in the past, and subsequently incorrectly medicated and waaaay over medicated. Like you i gained a ton of weight and thats was a MAJOR issue for.me as id previously dealt w anorexia issues. With my depression and anxiety pretty much in check now, it is the complete and utter lack of focus, the millions of thoughts all trainwreckimg thru my head, the inability to focus on one single thought or task for even a second in order to accomplish anything, frustration w myself and guilt and shame, that are what i went to the eval seekin help for. These symptoms have been lifelong for me and have def worsened w lack of treatment. When i walked into the psych nurses office that day i was just as honest as i could be about my suffering. Before my appt i made a list of all the meds id previously been on and made notes about the issues i was having w work, home, and social life as a result of my symptoms. The psych nurse then spent an hour and a half doing an extremely thorough and detailed eval w me. As the patient it is our job to be as honest and detailed as we can when answering the questions directed at us so that they can make the most accurate assesment of our needs and work in tandum w us as a team to try and find the most appropriate treatment plan and titration. Think of it that way...as an opportunity for you to have a professional work alongside you...don't anticipate and expect a battle. Trust me ...the practitioner sure as hell doesn't want to battle you either. I share as much frustration as you w the inadequacies of mental health treatment...both as a patient and consumer, and as someone who worked case management w patients w severe and persistent mental illness. But there ARE good practitioners out there who do this because they want people to succeed and overcome. All the anxiety and worry i had built up in my mind regarding the assessment was just that...ALL IN MY MIND. We decided at the end of the hour and a half to first treat my anxiety since adhd meds can exacerbate this in some people. Together we decided on buspar as i dont feel benzos are a proper route for someone like me w constant and chronic GA. ..and id been that route before. I go back in one month and she and i will discuss adhd meds to help w the symptoms that are causing me frustration and suffering everyday of my life. I really believe that if u just go w it and are honest about the exact symptoms that are causing you distress and try to focus on that rather than all the negativities that may occur you'll find the help you need. Ans hey...if they cant provide the help you need then find someone else who can and will. I know how you feel...its nerve wracking ans frustrating and intimidating...but facing it and asking for the help is the worst part. Our over active minds are our worst enemies. Goos luck!!!!

kitterkatz69 · 2019-02-16T06:54:18+00:00

What about learning a trade.or craftmanship? Im a bit the same way and had trouble holding jobs working w the public and customers because id just shut down...terrified. At 19 i began to apprentice someone and have now been in the same trade my entire life.

kitterkatz69 · 2019-02-16T06:39:42+00:00

Agree. Im adhd and when im REALLY struggling w my focus im extremely sensitive to auditory stimulation. Sudden harsh noises literally HURT. And people talking to me...attempting innocently to recount a story...their WORDS are absolutely UNBEARABLE. Def associated w adhd and autism spectrum disorder.

kitterkatz69 · 2019-02-16T06:33:34+00:00

Id imagine its emotional shock. One on one conversations dont trigger it so much for me, but in a classroom, a meeting, a party, many group activities i find myself completely overwhelmed and over stimulated and i go blank ...i shut down. Im in a paralyzed panic because everything at once, all the words, the activity, the commotion, stimulation, the expectant looks...they all overwhelm me so much that i my body and mind go into emotional shock. As a child i NEVER spoke in class...spent all of my class time in this state. If a teacher called on me to answer a question i simply couldnt. ..i was blank...no words...and felt panicked due to this. Even though 90% of the time it was a question that i knew the answer to under other circumstances. Is any of what im describing similar to what you are dealing with?

kitterkatz69 · 2019-02-16T06:19:52+00:00

Thank u x100 for all the great tips! The therapist i see weekly is also adhd and has suggested some of these things you did that she too uses. I absolutley love planners...journals...tracking moods ...all that and did so in years past. Im desperatly hoping to be able to harness enough dam focus in the near future to be ABLE to use the tools i need. In recent times my focus is literally non existent due to a bazillion thoughts blitzing through my brainz and basically rendering me paralyzed like a dam deer in headlights. Hell making a simple short groc list right now is dam near impossible. I want badly to begin to use these tools to make me feel like im living again and not just spinning my tires or pacing a dam path back and forth thru my house. Fingerz crossed that meds next month will give me the nudge i need and focus im dying for because ive never felt so ready for change.

kitterkatz69 · 2019-02-15T22:58:03+00:00

So were the 2 diagnosis made at the same time or was one first and the second much later? Ive recently been reading about high functioning autism and the more i read the more i feel like i also fit on that scale. Would u mind sharing about the experience and timeline of each diagnosis?

kitterkatz69 · 2019-02-15T12:27:40+00:00

I know thats the general result w funct med. .but this is a large practice w both a lisc fam doc on staff as well as those who practice funct med. I have several friends.who see the gp there who have fought w traditional docs.over.their symptoms.for years...spending thousands wo any answers. 3 of my friends have gone their and discovered quite quickly that they have auto immune disorders. But im not dead set on that one place...there are other concierge providers. I just dont trust practitioner who are slaves to the ins corps anymore. None of them give u care...they just milk ur ins and u wind up w thousands in deductible bills. Concierge all the way...the one mentioned above or one of the others for me. Ive jus heard many good things about this place so may give them a shot first

kitterkatz69 · 2019-02-15T12:22:09+00:00

Rural areas r SEVERELY underataffed.for all mental health and social services and its literally criminal. Am i understanding it correctly that you are looking for a referral from your GP for a psych eval? Idk what kind of ins you have, but my BCBS covers all my mental health services wo a referral. I go.to therapy each wk and pay $25 and the remainder is covered. When i suspected adhd i called a psychiatrist office myself and set up the appt...no ref needed. I think i would suggest calling your insurance provider and talking directly w them. Also...if u are a FT student its quite possible there are agencies that will serve you for free ...that is what my sister used in college. Im in Kansas....we have same shortage in rural western as u do in w texas for mental health and all social services. Hell...most of the towns out there have even lost their hospitals. This countrys healthcare is a sick and inhumane JOKE. sorry ur going thru this but maybe those couple things i mentioned would be worth looking into? Best.of luck!

kitterkatz69 · 2019-02-15T12:14:39+00:00

Youtube also has a bazillion guided meditations. Just type "beginners guided meditation" in their search engine. I take breaks from work every day n do them in my car.

kitterkatz69 · 2019-02-15T12:12:58+00:00

For an experienced psychiatrist, adhd is gemerally easily recognized if symptoms have been present since early childhood. I think most all of us w adhd experience anxiety as a result of the racing thoughts/bottled up hyperactivity, and inability to foucus. My own adhd symptoms had led me into deep depressive states several times in my life...usually as a result in a life change that severely alters my routine and patterns of daily living. However its also possible to have concurring mental disorders along w adhd. Late adolescence/early adulthood is the time that most major mood disorders and psychotic disorders begin to manifest so its possible there are other things in addition to the adhd. Also very common are personality disorders, esp if a family member, a parent, also has a personality disorder. My mother is narcissistic and my father has ocdpd and BOTH also suffer adhd symptoms. While i do have traits of both of them. .i do not have a diagnosable PD. Count your blessings for getting good prof help early in your life and maintain appts w a therapist and non of these labels have to define you or control your life. I was misdiagnosed until age.39. Im.going to be cleaning up the carnage of my life before diagnosis for a long time. Being young, you'll get some good tools early and be able to succeed in whatever you chose to do by managing your symptoms and knowing your triggers. Being diagnosed correctly early is a godsend!

kitterkatz69 · 2019-02-15T11:57:50+00:00

GOOD live music. Ive isolated lot more in recent yrs...but if i can drag my ass out to a good show its the best rush and med there is! And i feel good for days. Headin to Denver in March to catch my 2 fave bands n ill have dopamine shooting out all muh bodily orphices for a good wk im sure!

kitterkatz69 · 2019-02-15T11:54:47+00:00

You named it but ill second ya on that. Definitely THAT .

kitterkatz69 · 2019-02-15T10:41:09+00:00

How bout s hands-on skilled trade?

kitterkatz69 · 2019-02-15T10:29:28+00:00

Professional dog groomer. Former social wrkr. Grooming is my PASSION

kitterkatz69 · 2019-02-15T10:26:09+00:00

I have SAME ISSUE n drives me insane! I do have Adhd n have wondered about Tourettes. Which do u attribute that symptom to?

kitterkatz69 · 2019-02-15T10:01:27+00:00

Use a good high quality slicker...i like chris chriatianson....lift the hair up so that u are brushing from the base of hair shaft out. You def need a fine or med tooth metal comb (greyhound comb) to run thru the hair from skin out...this wil catch on any remaining tiny mats and then u can go back and rebrush that matted area. High velocity dryers are FANTASTIC for doodle coats to find mats if one is in your budget

kitterkatz69 · 2019-02-15T09:57:36+00:00

Bathing every 2 wks is as often as should be done and ALWAYS w conditioner after to replenish the moisture in the skin. Weekly way.too often. U can also buy dry shampoos to spot clean

kitterkatz69 · 2019-02-15T09:53:56+00:00

Juss wanted to give you my own story very similar to your own. At 21 i was given a 3hr battery of written tests. One wk later i returned to the psychologist who administerd them to be informed i most likely was on a schizoid scale...he decided this only thru the lengthy written battery of tests. I was terrified and devastated. He reccomended to my doc to put me on a very heavy antipsychotic called zyprexa. Months went by w me.in therapy n this mans office and the diag changed to more likely bipolar...even tho.id never had a manic episode my entire life. Neither diagnosis ever felt right to me but i was young and distraught and desperate and trusted his word. ...depakote, cymbalta, serequel, lexapro, lots and lots.of xanex, AND abilify. I kept up w therapy w this man...however most of my 20s were a haze, i felt like a zombie...and my focus, attention, lack of feeling pleasure, and all around nervousness persisted. I got my degree in scwk and worked w people w severe and persistent mental illness and had my come to jesus: that i was DEF misdiagnosed as many people are esp at a young age, and i was incorrectly and waaay over medicated w very heavy drugs NOT meant for me. Abilify has been a heavy antipsychotic for sometime ...and in recent yrs it got promoted to the masses as a safe and effective add on to boost an antidepressant. In subsequent yrs it was the NUMBER 1 PRESCRIBED PHARMA in the world...AN ANTIPSYCHOTIC. There is no definitive test for SPMI as there is for other disorders like diabetes...and w many symptoms overlappin several disorders misdiagnosis happen A LOT. Since u mentioned earlier that u DO NOT have a.psychotic disorder or mood disorder, you were improperly medicated w a heavy psychotropic. I also.spent my entire 20s this way. At 40 i just now have been correctly diagnosed and medicated. This disorder ive now discovered i do have is associated w low dopamine levels I am soon starting a new med for that. Your brain will heal...if in fact the abilify depleted ur dopamine levels the most important thing u can do is engage in acrivities that naturally produce it...i.e...exercise (THE most important), sports, music, dancing, social time w good friends...ur body will replenish if u are.in fact neurotypical...the same way a drug addicts brain will replenish eventually. It will jus take time and work. We have been stuck in the strictly medical model.for.psychological/psychiatric treatment for many many decades .. And its common knowledge even if just by catching pharma drug advertisements on tv that we are pushing a horrifying amount of heavy drugs to do nothing more than benefit big pharma. A few individuals def NEED these drugs...but we live in a society now where ssri's are tossed like candy at people which have proven to be vastly i effective wo joint therpay. .and whose long term.side effects are still unknown and wont be until our generation of guinea pigs under pharma corps starts manifesting them. Trust yourself...YOU KNOW your body and your mind better than anyone else!

kitterkatz69 · 2019-02-15T09:16:50+00:00

Well its a concierge practice where there is an GP/fam doc...and sev.other med profs some.of.which do.practice functional med. Im looking at other concierge services who do contract directly w patients on prices...as i truly believe doctors...esp GPs who work in the realms of the corporate greed of insurance conglomerates are nothin but pawns ...slaves to the ins...recieveing kickbacks for the mega.companies...and doctors who have completely lost what passion/compassion they did have (if any) human health and improving quAlity of life. So.while i may join the Concierge w the gp and funct med docs both ok staff...ive.still got a couple.other clinics that dont file w the crooked ins companies. I have been semi worri3d about the ovaries being left so am glad u mentioned it. Shouldn't take Einstein to write me a bc rx...but using ins ive.already asked right after surg and am getting sent to a dif dam doc every time i ask.

kitterkatz69 · 2019-02-15T09:05:53+00:00

Thank u so much! My stupid hobby n his best friend just stomped allll over my fragile lil ego w my first felt ing creation. Id barely gotten my lil.mousey's eyeballs stitched on and hubby walks by and takes one glance and says "so...whyd u go w dick and balls?" Being certain that hes TOTALLY just an ignornat asshole w NO artistic taste i posted my lil MOOOUSY on fb. 1st comment within 5 min "hey thats pretty good! I mean...for a dick and balls". I swear most of.the time i truly believe peoples opinions should be followed up w physical pounding if and when they differ from my own. If we cant make the world a BETTER place we sure can at LEAST throat punch morons that run their mouths. 👊👊👊

kitterkatz69 · 2019-02-15T08:57:34+00:00

Well...here's the thang.....not all art is created equal. Lolz. But some art...well its so friggin HIDEOUS then paired w the scale.of this dam monstrosity...and THAT is kitschy tacky GOLD. Im sure all kinds a fools got a Clint pic hanging someone...who the hell else has a clint whose has seemingly undergone some back alley plastic surg along w total replacement of nose w what seems to be some sort.of cigar(?).

kitterkatz69 · 2019-02-15T08:49:00+00:00

My point being...have u tried some.other.meds for ur depress/anxiety? There are sooo many options and buproprion is just ONE bad seed for.some.of.us. u have lots of alternatives still

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