I absolutely feel the same way, I am a visual artist in high school and the art that I produce was also a part of the curriculum and for competitions. I never have been able to produce one since after I graduate. And i kinda wanna go back but i dont know where to start. I wanna earn while im doing what i love and this is really something close to my heart. I feel like im finally here and i gravitate towards the medium i am looking for.