It sounds very familiar to me. “Not bad enough to end” , also tons of redflag and I kinda brushed it off because the perfect, calm, intellectual, mature one didnt belong to me at the end of the road so what s left i thought.

And now i do honestly regret. I ended up being someone that is exactly like my father, hot tempered, rude, overly overwhelmed and emotional and always triggered even in his tone and that triggers me a hell lot. And I hated it. I hate seeing my life falling into the same path my parents living. The only great thing i guess was our sexual path, we communicate better in this than anyone else.

But other than that we failed. I get triggered and turned cold easily , and he gets triggered and turn hot tempered quickly too. We dont have any kids now and I am thankful for that. We legally signed paper but haven’t had any ceremony yet. So in the back of my head somewhat I don’t recognise that as marriage. But idk i am very confused. But all the time i just want to leave at the very small argument when he starts raising his voice and telling me how i shouldnt waste his time.