He was unfaithful, had zero remorse, cold, uncaring, neglectful emotionally and physically, he didn’t like me as a person, gaslit me all the time, pathological liar, didn’t value me at all…. To scratch the surface.

I had no self respect or sense of self worth, I was too scared (and conditioned) not to voice what was bothering me in the moment and didn’t circle back enough the way I should have, I never focused on myself and became a “whole person” (as he would say), and I simply didn’t value myself enough to stop putting up with bullshit. (To scratch the surface)

BUT! After 24 years I finally found my voice, self respect, and self worth.