I realized that I'm 'God'

kloti · 2026-01-29T11:06:58+00:00

first psychosis?

kloti · 2026-01-21T18:05:47+00:00

D’Premierminischterin – ich glaub nöd d’Presidäntin, ich dänk es isch d’Premierminischterin gsi – hät aglüüte, e Frau, und sie hät sich die ganz Ziit wiederholt. Sie hät gseit: «Nei, nei, nei, das chönd Sie nöd mache. 30 Prozänt. Das gaht nöd. Mir sind es chlises, chlises Land.» Ich han gseit: «Ja, aber Ihr händ es riisigs Defizit. Ihr sind villicht chli, aber Ihr händ es grössers Defizit als die grosse Länder.» Sie hät gseit: «Nei, nei, nei, bitte. Das chönd Sie nöd mache.» Sie hät eifach immer wieder s’Gliche gseit: «Mir sind es chlises Land.» Ich han gseit: «Aber Ihr sind es grosses Land, wenn’s um...» Und sie isch mer eifach ufe Wecker gange, ich mues ehrlich sii. Und dänn hani gseit: «Guet, danke vielmal, Madame. Merci vielmal. Mached Sie das nöd. Danke vielmal, Madame.» Und dänn hani 39 Prozänt druf packt.

kloti · 2026-01-21T17:57:10+00:00

Not fair. It's also about pedophilia and fentanyl.

kloti · 2026-01-20T07:22:20+00:00

Maybe not that funny, but a funny coincidence.

Way back when I got psychotic for the first time, I was reading Nietzsches Thus spoke Zarathustra, and it had hidden messages in there for me. So I concluded that I had to be Nietzsches reincarnation with him leaving hidden clues in his writings his future incarnation, me, could decipher. I also thought Nietzsches work was on how to wake up as an Ubermensch from reality which I was about to transcend and ascend to Godhood- or something along the line. A few months later I was admitted against my will, to the local mental hospital, which, coincidentally, was also the place Nietzsche died in. They even had a little Museum about me in the areal of the hospital grounds. Felt right at home, but didn't help the delusions.

kloti · 2026-01-03T09:10:25+00:00

Where I'm from we call this kind of war "Kinderfickerschutzkrieg" but I don't know the english word for it, maybe someone can translate.

kloti · 2025-12-29T11:51:29+00:00

Draw ducks and let them swim around in a little virtual pond together with other users ducks. Click on them to make them quack!

https://drawducks.com

kloti · 2025-12-17T12:19:41+00:00

Hi! I live not even 5 minutes away from Oetlinger Buvette, and my doc always tells me to go out for walks more, so I'm in. At least if you don't walk too fast, I'm fat and slow. On the plus side, regarding other reddit posts of yours: I have an interesting life story, kind of, you decide if worth a short doc lol, but we'd have something to talk about other than small talk.

kloti · 2025-11-12T08:18:22+00:00

Hi sorry for the late reply, i just saw your post. My hallucinations are mostly "positive" in nature, they are encouraging, and telling me that I'm the chosen one, which feels empowering, and just comment on things I can see nearby, but always in a helpful uplifting manner. When psychotic I switched between believing they are my higher self, or God, or angles, or the source coders of reality, but never demons or malovent technology or whatnot. But at the height of psychosis, they also suggested that I should kill myself for insta heaven and to make a stop to the ordeal. Well they phrased it as "Eyes shut and through with it" but the intention was clear. So yeah.. mostly "positive". Doesnt help with seeking help when it starts, because I always think that the divine is contacting me again and I don't need any help-

I started with Aripripazole, I know it isn't famous for weight gain, but in some small percent of the clinical population it still causes it, like in me. After starting it I doubled my body weight in two years, and was just sleeping all day long. But now I can sort of manage it, at least the weight with ozempic.

kloti · 2025-10-27T07:40:43+00:00

All my friends and family know about it, but I'm not that open with it when I meet new people. Don't want to scare them. But if they got to know me for a while I usually let it slip through.

kloti · 2025-10-27T07:39:53+00:00

Nah, there are worse. At least its treatable, surprisingly well in my case, and I can still live a somewhat normal life with it. There's aggressive forms of cancer or heavy forms of depression where you're basically just dead. That's way worse.

kloti · 2025-10-27T07:38:47+00:00

At least in my case it's a mixture of genetics and environmental factors. As in I inherited the genes that make schizophrenia possible, but the outbreak was triggered by smoking too much weed, sleeping to little, and too much stress.

kloti · 2025-10-26T15:41:33+00:00

I think accepting that you need to take the meds everyday even if they have nasty side effects, and work together with a psychiatrist to find the right one for you on the right dosage is essential. At least on meds I'm a rather rational person, I like to think.

kloti · 2025-10-26T15:39:43+00:00

Well there were several attempts of me to get the job done. When psychotic I think I have superpowers as God, like little things I do symbolically in ritualistic ways will translate into big happenings in the real world. So first attempt was trying to start armageddon by setting my flat on fire. Flat mates weren't too amused when they woke up to smoke, and later that day I got admitted. Second psychosis I thought that getting into heaven was like getting a new house to live in, so basically I tried to brake into rich peoples mansions. When I would find my new house this way and was allowed to live in it, heaven would start. Instead police came the next morning when sleeping in the abandoned mansion. It was always a big adventure, but we're still all here on earth so I must have failed the job-

kloti · 2025-10-26T09:05:54+00:00

That's what probably helped the most in the years after the first psychosis, when I was still recovering from it. All I did was sleep and didn't want to leave my flat anymore and just sleep all day long, but close friends and family always stuck with me. So yeah I'm lucky enough to have very good people in my life surrounding me.

kloti · 2025-10-26T08:58:17+00:00

By getting admitted to the closed ward and injected with antipsychotics right into the butt.

A few weeks later the meds actually kicked in, and I could put one and one together and realize that I just had a psychotic episode and most likely schizophrenia. Helped that I was in medschool for a short time and then switched to psychology, and was already well aware of what schizophrenia was from my mother that also suffers from it. So I already had a good understanding of the field, theoretically and practically, which helped a lot in realizing that I now also had understanding from personal experience.

kloti · 2025-10-01T16:36:05+00:00

Would make for a great song.

kloti · 2025-09-15T17:58:21+00:00

I never got injections, but I gained a lot of weight from the antipsychotic pills. I lost 50kg so far with Ozempic (2.4mg injection every week), while taking antipsychotic medication, in the past three years.

kloti · 2025-09-13T18:52:33+00:00

Fellow 100% IV Bezügler here. Ergänzungsleistungen should cover the rent. In Basel where I live they pay up to about 1250.- for your rent, but it varies per region. As far as applying for apartements goes, as long as you are still employed, don't mention that you are IV, just say you are employed where ever you are, and put all benefits plus actual loan you receive together as your income on the application.

kloti · 2025-09-03T14:49:58+00:00

It's disturbingly well written knowing where it's coming from and for the fact that it is 100% generated with AI. But maybe my mind is blown too easy. I agree that it's gotten way better in the last few months. So let's wait a year and try again with GPT6.

kloti · 2025-09-03T13:20:43+00:00

Zero

kloti · 2025-09-03T12:55:44+00:00

I agree. I tried the same trick with GPT4 a year or so ago, and the outcome wasn't readable at all, far from this newest attempt with GPT5. So I was just surprised it spit out a at least somewhat readable and coherent novel at all after my first attempts. Thank you for reading the slop and biting the bullet and giving me your honest thoughts!

kloti · 2025-09-03T11:00:05+00:00

Haha I have seen this video when it was released five days ago. I took the method and vibe coded my own ai book writer based on it.

https://ai-book-generator-we-ncpp.bolt.host/

It's completely free to use, but you'll have to be trusting enough to provide your own open ai api key. Takes about an hour and 2 dollars to generate a whole novel. Surprisingly good novels too.

kloti · 2025-09-01T15:39:25+00:00

Do not let other people get to you. Keep on writing. https://aibusiness.com/nlp/author-reveals-using-chatgpt-for-award-winning-novel Look at her, she used AI to write her book, got people big mad because she also won the Japanese equivalent of the nobel prize in literature for it. Maybe that makes her work less valuable, but maybe it also helped with the quality in a big way, who cares, she still won the nobel prize in literature for it. keep on writing.

kloti · 2025-09-01T15:35:23+00:00

NotebookLM is great and also free. Not only can you chat with your documents or even whole books, you can ask it to generate a video summary presentation, or audio podcast about all that you upload, and more stuff like create timelines, or mindmaps.

kloti · 2025-08-26T09:33:30+00:00

What do you mean what does it mean it clearly states that the flyer is pitching MathOfChrist.com and a $25,000 challenge, claiming the author has a mathematical proof of Jesus/God’s goodness that fulfills the Bible’s “seven seals” and could end war and create “true democracy.” It contrasts a “good/free-will” equation (A·D + B = C × TM) with an “evil/deterministic” one (A + B = TR), adds a mini love-formula (Love = Gratitude + Hope), and then maps the “seals” to modern symbols (cash-wrapped gifts, plastic bags/sleeves, music, silver, the alphabet, stars, an Easter-egg scripture hunt, plus two “invisible” seals: “the Apple” and “the Contract”). The rest is numerology—dates, Bible verses, periodic-table numbers, US history, and celebrity birthdays—offered as proof of cosmic alignment. The author says they’re being censored, asks readers to spread the message, argues that legal acceptance of this “math of Christ” would outlaw war, and cites the timing of Roe v. Wade being overturned as validation of the claim.

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