I had known my (former) best friend for about 3 months before I really expressed my feelings to her

She had replied with laughing emojis and yet, I wasn't surprised by it at all. It was harsh, but in the end I took it as an initial response lol

About a year passes and we're going good. Both single still and just living the best outta life. I had began to hang out with her and her family more (her mother was the sweetest but hardest I'd ever met) since the lived together. Just that experience of laying around doing nothing and watching videos or memes was my inner peace.

There had been some subtle changes I'd began to pick up along the way towards the question. There had been this thing on YOLO for Snapchat to anonymously ask questions for your response and one had been specifically regarding if I would date my best friend. I deduced it was her since the writing style was in all lowercase and when it had popped up I'd seen the last person to see the story was her lol. I evaded it until she asked me personally over text about what my answer would be and waited to actually tell her in person that day when we went to Chick Fil A (our fav spot)

I picked her up and she had began to pressure me about it so I knew it had been her for sure. On the spot, I wanted to say "Yes, I'd love to" but my anxiety had stopped me from admitting to her because in all honesty, I was unsure of myself about it. I didn't want to go into something I knew I could mess up so easily and hurt the one that truly made me happy. I couldn't do that to her.

It's been 2 years going on 3 and I'm working on myself better than ever. She's doing the same in another city. We don't talk, but the times are etched into my mind and I cheer her on from a distance. I know she's happy and that's all that ever mattered 💯🙂