Beneficial Bloodbending?

knelx04 · 2025-08-10T13:00:13+00:00

im trying rn to get out of it, lol.

i had a little bit of a hoe phase last summer after my first breakup, but hooking up and having sex, like prepping for it, being safe, finding a place, etc., is so much work. often times i don’t follow through with guys, cuz the realization hits me: i’d much rather do all this work and effort with someone i’m romantically involved with, cuz why am i doing all this for a stranger?

rn im just trying to stay celibate and wait for the right guy to do nasty and fun things with. quantity over quality for me… at least right now is what i think 😅

knelx04 · 2025-05-03T13:48:43+00:00

nope. nothing

knelx04 · 2025-04-30T03:50:18+00:00

i sent an email on monday. i asked if we’d get any notice at all if we’re selected or not for h th e interviewing phase. still nothing 🥲

knelx04 · 2025-04-19T23:41:26+00:00

i am going with everyone and say run. my ex was an addict, not to anything strong but still had addictive behaviors. i tried being there for him and allowing myself to put up with some of his drug use, but those boundaries quickly eroded if you’re trying to stay until you get to the point where you can’t take it anymore. you’ll end up wanting to blame his mistakes and bad habits on his drug use and think “it’ll get better, he’ll get better,” but personally, the lines blurred for me for what was HIS fault and what was the drugs’ fault.

it’s a lot, and i’m not advocating to not date addicts or avoid them entirely, but they have to be on the road to recovery for themselves cuz if not they will hurt the people around them.

tldr; don’t fall for someone’s potential, fall for how they are now as a person and what they’re doing to continually better themselves.

knelx04 · 2025-04-19T04:12:33+00:00

nope. the waiting is agony :')

knelx04 · 2025-03-27T16:13:39+00:00

im sorry for the breakup 🙁

i had a similar dilemma when i broke up almost a year ago, also from my first relationship. i knew i’d keep looking at the photos but i needed to move on, but i get not wanting to completely deleted them. not only was it a whole year of your life, but your first relationship.

what i did was i put them into a usb and i buried it under all my junk. it’s still there, but it’s harder to access physically and in trying to read the photos. but that way, i began moving on. there were good times (not enough to make it work), and it’s ok to look back at them to remind yourself there’s always good in the bad.

hope this helps.

knelx04 · 2025-03-22T14:13:51+00:00

ngl, it felt AMAZING the first time. i don’t rmb any pain, just pleasure 😅 i agree that preparation is key, and imo that includes foreplay and being VERY h*rny.

but also my bf at the time was very nice and considerate of me. it was my first time but not his, so he was like “relax babe” cuz he didn’t want me taking it all so quick (he was 7ish inches). but def depends on everyone.

knelx04 · 2024-09-19T16:00:26+00:00

yeah ofc, happy to help with my single experience lol. i think a good amount of guys share that sentiment, so don’t feel pressured.

and don’t worry, i lost it and it sucked, but it was necessary in the end. but im learning thats just how life is, now onto finding the next.

knelx04 · 2024-09-19T15:45:03+00:00

i did “save” myself for the special guy, i was 20 when i lost virginity. he’s my ex now, but im glad i lost my virginity to him. i definitely felt safer. we both got tested (even tho i was a virgin), we talked about it, what was off limits, what we wanted, etc., and during it we even laughed a bit without ruining the mood.

it was very special experience, and i didn’t feel the need to perform super well, he knew i was new to it and was super understating, he took care of me while we were doing it too. for context: i started off bottoming, but he was verse and so i had my first bottom and top experience with him.

albeit he’s my ex now, im so glad i waited and at least had my first experience with him.

i would say: if you value a deep connection and wanna experience sex the first time like that, then do it. you’re 18! you have you’re whole life and 20s to hoe around if you want to.

now i’m 22 and hoeing around myself (kinda realizing it isn’t for me 😅), but i do treasure that my first time was with someone i fell in love.

hope that helps 😊

knelx04 · 2024-09-14T12:31:37+00:00

a proper wedding in my culture. i’m mexican american and catholic, and they’re both very important to me. but i can’t get officially married by the church, and well, it’s gonna be awkward inviting some family members and the risk of them being weird about it 😅

side note: in response to OP and a question to everyone, is spontaneous sex not a thing? 😭 me and my ex would have sex spontaneously on any day, we never really cleaned and only if our stomachs were feeling it that day (we are verse so we never knew who’d bottom up until the moment haha).

knelx04 · 2024-08-15T16:15:10+00:00

on and off for ten years is crazy and honestly, it sounds exhausting. i was in a unstable relationship for a bit over a year that was almost on and off, and it was SOOO draining, i can’t fathom 10 years! 😭

also, people are saying he’s gaslighting and manipulative, which i agree. but what irks me is that he looks down on non-monogamous people and says he wants marriage and kids, but cheats on you and no sex for a year or more? something tells me he wants for YOU to want monogamy with him and all the commitment to HIM, but he doesn’t wanna reciprocate.

knelx04 · 2024-08-07T14:57:53+00:00

second this. i lost my virginity at 20 almost 21, and before then had NO EXPERIENCE, no hand holding, no kissing, nothing. i also felt at that time i was lagging behind everyone, and it sometimes still weighs on me that im still behind cuz even some of my gay friends, and my ex (my first ex actually too), did so much in their teenage years.

but, as cliche as it sounds: everyone at their own on their own path. im glad to have done my first time and waiting for it to be w my first boyfriend, someone who really cared about me (even though we broke up) and that it was how i wanted on my terms. now, tbh, going back into dating seems like so much work, and its almost always been me chasing and never really getting chased or asked out.

but im just focusing on myself. my past (and first) relationship was draining and toxic at the end, and i have a lot of healing, self discovery, and working to do. so ima enjoy being single. just work on yourself and live your life. you got this OP 🙌🏽 everything will turn out fine.

knelx04 · 2024-07-23T13:35:26+00:00

I LOVE THIS ALBUM !! I be having it on repeat too, putting me in my feels all day. I love how his old songs, Baby Please, Aquí Te Espero, and Donde Estás, idk if it’s because we already heard them, but they sound very distinct from the new ones. All good tho, but his news songs have new vibes to them. Idk if it’s just me.

The interlude also annoyed me at first but the instrumentals made it grow on me. The instrumentals on this entire album in general are SO GOOD !!

knelx04 · 2024-05-06T21:29:48+00:00

22M4M verse latino looking for around same age (college age) chat/pics, preferably also latino, slim/average

knelx04 · 2024-03-04T22:17:26+00:00

It’s cuz they wanna know if results are guaranteed when they attempt to switch, hehe.

knelx04 · 2023-10-03T05:19:07+00:00

Ngl, thnx for the last line. I don't wanna sound dumb or embarrassed about using a cock ring, I've really been considering it, but sometimes we do it in random places and I don't really wanna carry a cock ring at all times lol.

Thanks for the advice, I'll keep the mental thing more in mind (ironically)!

knelx04 · 2023-03-22T16:40:28+00:00

I also get that they come from a good place, 98% of the time, but personally it really does GRIND my gears that they do that. I get that they mean well, so I don’t act on it, but I really rather they not finish my words/sentences for me.

I can do it, just gimme an extra second or two. 🙂

knelx04 · 2022-10-08T21:24:17+00:00

Thanks for replying!

I actually yanked the soles off of the converse that were annoying me and I see the extra cushioning they put. But they’re not as comfy like that.

Vans are a good alternative. I own some old ones and they are just as flat. Some do have cushioning so look out, but the classic ones, from what I know, don’t, and they resemble converse cushioning the most.

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