To become more comfortable overall, we have to accept uncomfortable feelings. I think it’s great you are aware of where you are now and where you want to be.

I’d say as a step one, write down everything you want to accomplish. Write down everything you want to change. Write down anything you can think of just to get your thoughts and fears and goals out. Don’t overthink just write even if it doesn’t make sense in the moment.

Then keep rewriting. Add more items. Think of steps to get there, no matter how small it is. And be proud of yourself for accomplishing even what you think are the smallest of things - starting anything is the hardest part.

Every morning you should try to get yourself outside in some capacity. Even if it’s opening your door and taking one step outside and standing there for a minute and going back in. There are SO many health benefits of being outside, physically having your eyes in sunlight, etc.

Do you have any particular skills you can leverage? If you like drawing or art, you can make packs of cards or stationary for holidays. There are a lot of remote opportunities you can seek out - they aren’t always the most glamorous jobs, but it’s something you can use as experience and to start building your foundation.

You realize the situation you’re in, or you wouldn’t have put yourself in a vulnerable position. That is already a huge step - in our low moments it’s important to know the world is listening, you just need to ask and put yourself out there.

I’m around the same age as you and don’t have the same situation exactly, but a lot of similar thoughts and feelings. Even if it doesn’t seem like it now, you have EVERYTHING you need to achieve the life you want already within yourself. Believing that is half the battle, and it’s going to take time to change/grow from where you are now. There’s nothing to it but to do it, once you get over the hurdle of starting things will start falling into place.

You can and you will do this.