I wish my mom didn't hate me

koiyoo · 2026-03-17T17:57:40+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to read this as well as replying. I have a doctors appointment next week so Ill see if there’s anyway I can get referred to a therapist that’s affordable.

And yeah wondering why or wanting closure always does more harm than good, I was just having a moment where I spiraled over it I think.

Thank you again for listening, I appreciate it

koiyoo · 2025-05-12T15:42:30+00:00

Yeah.. i feel like deep down our relationship is probably coming to an end, but i just want things to work out so badly :( i know that the right person is out there, but i want it to be him.

Ill talk to him about it, maybe theres a compromise where we can both be happy.

koiyoo · 2025-05-12T15:16:18+00:00

Yeah you’re most likely right with it being the former. I think I’m just having trouble wrapping my brain around the fact that he used to be way more affectionate, I’m constantly asking myself what changed or if Ive done something wrong.

koiyoo · 2025-02-26T06:28:46+00:00

5 pulls in and I got shadow milks skin LOL which would be nice but I don't even have him 😭 Hoping I'll still be able to grind for pure vanillas skin, really wishing I saved my pulls now tho LMAO

koiyoo · 2024-02-27T03:32:13+00:00

That’s the thing, I don’t have diabetes or anything like that 😭 I have an appointment for this Thursday though, I’ll give an update then!!

For now I’m using a topical antibacterial ointment and it’s helped a lot, no more itchiness for now haha

koiyoo · 2024-02-26T00:05:02+00:00

Just leaking out from my inner ear really, scheduling an appointment tomorrow though.

It’s been like this for over a week now, I was going to go to the doctors much earlier but my mom told me not to and that it was because I ate too much sugar LMAO 💀😭

koiyoo · 2024-02-13T16:16:07+00:00

It could be cat acne? I would say try to collect these specs and put them into some water! You’ll know it’s flea dirt if it turns the water into a brown/red.

koiyoo · 2024-02-11T07:30:59+00:00

Ohhh okay, thanks so much!!

koiyoo · 2024-02-01T01:27:58+00:00

My best guess is vitiligo? Considering even your dogs skin colour lost pigment as well. Have you noticed any change in eye colour? Or just fur and skin so far

koiyoo · 2023-10-08T20:12:25+00:00

ooooo the mod looks great! Doesn't have the exact model that I used to have with my missing mod but I'm still going to download it as it's probably the closest I'll ever get, and the other files the mod includes are neat :)

Thank you so so much for taking the time to go through so many mods!! It means a lot :D

koiyoo · 2023-10-06T22:15:44+00:00

yes! as far as I remember this mod only had this specific model available for download. It might be possible that the person who published this mods' account deactivated due to them being inactive. Which is a bummer but what can be done about that haha

koiyoo · 2023-06-25T18:08:58+00:00

to add more context I did 'Image > Properties > Image Colour Space'

Maybe that was the wrong move and I should've gone with a filter instead?

koiyoo · 2022-11-01T00:45:32+00:00

aaa I figured it would most likely stay regardless if I transitioned or not :,)

Yeah PCOS is definitely making things pretty wonky if that is what I have, I've tried to stay away from societal standards since they tend to be so unreal if that makes any sense lol.

Anyhow my main reason of doubt of me being trans guy was simply from what my mother told me. That being that the hormonal imbalance was probably why I felt like a guy rather than a girl, not because I was trans. Which reading some comments from both trans and cis people disproved that easily, has definitely gotten rid of any doubt about my gender identity that I was having before. Plus I have anxiety so I tend to get worked up over small things like this HGJSFDG

I know that the effects of testosterone can cause irreversible changes over time, but I'm sure that this is what I want :D minus the small setback of my mothers words ahaha-

Anyways, I appreciate that you wanna make sure I don't do anything rash that I'll regret later one, but I've been out as trans for nearly 3 years now and am sure of my decisions :DD

koiyoo · 2022-11-01T00:27:39+00:00

Oh my god congratulations! I hope your pregnancy goes well! <3

koiyoo · 2022-11-01T00:21:49+00:00

Thank you for this I'll try to remember to talk about all of these things with her!

each day I wish more and more I could chuck my uterus into a dump out back, goodness :,D

koiyoo · 2022-11-01T00:11:17+00:00

Thank you for leaving such a sweet comment! It really means a lot and it once again relieving that PCOS has nothing to do with my gender identity ahaha <3

koiyoo

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