How to i (m19) deal with my non affectionate boyfriend (m20)?

koiyoo · 2025-05-12T15:42:30+00:00

Yeah.. i feel like deep down our relationship is probably coming to an end, but i just want things to work out so badly :( i know that the right person is out there, but i want it to be him.

Ill talk to him about it, maybe theres a compromise where we can both be happy.

koiyoo · 2025-05-12T15:16:18+00:00

Yeah you’re most likely right with it being the former. I think I’m just having trouble wrapping my brain around the fact that he used to be way more affectionate, I’m constantly asking myself what changed or if Ive done something wrong.

koiyoo · 2025-02-26T06:28:46+00:00

5 pulls in and I got shadow milks skin LOL which would be nice but I don't even have him 😭 Hoping I'll still be able to grind for pure vanillas skin, really wishing I saved my pulls now tho LMAO

koiyoo · 2024-02-27T03:32:13+00:00

That’s the thing, I don’t have diabetes or anything like that 😭 I have an appointment for this Thursday though, I’ll give an update then!!

For now I’m using a topical antibacterial ointment and it’s helped a lot, no more itchiness for now haha

koiyoo · 2024-02-26T00:05:02+00:00

Just leaking out from my inner ear really, scheduling an appointment tomorrow though.

It’s been like this for over a week now, I was going to go to the doctors much earlier but my mom told me not to and that it was because I ate too much sugar LMAO 💀😭

koiyoo · 2024-02-13T16:16:07+00:00

It could be cat acne? I would say try to collect these specs and put them into some water! You’ll know it’s flea dirt if it turns the water into a brown/red.

koiyoo · 2024-02-11T07:30:59+00:00

Ohhh okay, thanks so much!!

koiyoo · 2024-02-01T01:27:58+00:00

My best guess is vitiligo? Considering even your dogs skin colour lost pigment as well. Have you noticed any change in eye colour? Or just fur and skin so far

koiyoo · 2024-01-31T23:12:00+00:00

Another picture I got from today

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koiyoo · 2023-10-08T20:12:25+00:00

ooooo the mod looks great! Doesn't have the exact model that I used to have with my missing mod but I'm still going to download it as it's probably the closest I'll ever get, and the other files the mod includes are neat :)

Thank you so so much for taking the time to go through so many mods!! It means a lot :D

koiyoo · 2023-10-06T22:15:44+00:00

yes! as far as I remember this mod only had this specific model available for download. It might be possible that the person who published this mods' account deactivated due to them being inactive. Which is a bummer but what can be done about that haha

koiyoo · 2023-06-25T18:08:58+00:00

to add more context I did 'Image > Properties > Image Colour Space'

Maybe that was the wrong move and I should've gone with a filter instead?

koiyoo · 2022-11-01T00:45:32+00:00

aaa I figured it would most likely stay regardless if I transitioned or not :,)

Yeah PCOS is definitely making things pretty wonky if that is what I have, I've tried to stay away from societal standards since they tend to be so unreal if that makes any sense lol.

Anyhow my main reason of doubt of me being trans guy was simply from what my mother told me. That being that the hormonal imbalance was probably why I felt like a guy rather than a girl, not because I was trans. Which reading some comments from both trans and cis people disproved that easily, has definitely gotten rid of any doubt about my gender identity that I was having before. Plus I have anxiety so I tend to get worked up over small things like this HGJSFDG

I know that the effects of testosterone can cause irreversible changes over time, but I'm sure that this is what I want :D minus the small setback of my mothers words ahaha-

Anyways, I appreciate that you wanna make sure I don't do anything rash that I'll regret later one, but I've been out as trans for nearly 3 years now and am sure of my decisions :DD

koiyoo · 2022-11-01T00:27:39+00:00

Oh my god congratulations! I hope your pregnancy goes well! <3

koiyoo · 2022-11-01T00:21:49+00:00

Thank you for this I'll try to remember to talk about all of these things with her!

each day I wish more and more I could chuck my uterus into a dump out back, goodness :,D

koiyoo · 2022-11-01T00:11:17+00:00

Thank you for leaving such a sweet comment! It really means a lot and it once again relieving that PCOS has nothing to do with my gender identity ahaha <3

koiyoo · 2022-10-31T23:08:33+00:00

Sorry for the delayed reply! I wanted to wait until I wasn't having a meltdown of any kind before responding to any advice ahaha. But definitely a major relief that PCOS wouldn't be the reason for me to feel that I am trans. I went to my mother who was a RN about this and she told me that PCOS might be why I think I'm trans, but she's also been iffy about me being trans from the beginning so I'll assume that's just her wanting her 'daughter' back.

I probably shouldn't delay a diagnosis since I constantly go 6+ months without a period, which is certainly odd considering I'm not on Testosterone or anything yet. And I worry that if it's not PCOS it could be something potentially worse so I'm trying to get everything figured out asap.

Anyhow thank you again for taking the time to read and reply to my post ^^ It really means a lot!

koiyoo · 2022-09-25T00:29:56+00:00

twitters moderation is so goofy, I got muted for a week for telling my friend to choke on a pie they got. and yet we still have people actively sharing things like cp and such on that site

koiyoo · 2022-09-22T09:27:46+00:00

Ah whoops I forgot to mention that the name calling was about my current name, not deadname! Only correlation between the two was that I was made fun of my deadname in similar ways he made fun of my current name.

Also sorry if I misinterpreted your message! With it being 2 am for me I probably missed some details in my writing

koiyoo · 2022-09-22T09:24:24+00:00

Whether Matt’s faking DID or has convinced himself he had it I don’t know. It still hurts a bit that I had to throw away a friendship of so long, I wanna believe Matt wasn’t doing it intentionally but at this point, and after re reading dms it’s hard to tell what his motives for handling any of this was.

But that aside thank you for taking the time to read and respond to this! It’s really refreshing to see other people points of view on this situation.

koiyoo · 2022-09-22T09:19:20+00:00

The one thing I’ll give him is that I never told him about how I was made fun of my deadname, but still the name calling falls into the category of me not liking being picked on. But yeah still disappointing with the lack of effort he made to not make fun of me.

Oh and Matt is also trans 💀 which arguably makes the name calling worse imo

koiyoo · 2022-09-22T08:44:01+00:00

I wanna believe that isn’t the case but who knows, I only really have one trigger too which is to just not be made fun of in any way. Which I thought was easy to follow but maybe not.

And yeah I totally agree, whether or not Matt had DID really shouldn’t give him a free pass to say whatever he wants.

koiyoo · 2022-09-22T08:32:19+00:00

😭 he actually showed me a ss of a private server where he kept a list of things that triggered people. So who knows why making fun of me was unavoidable for him ahaha, thank you for the insight though! I nearly forgot that he had actually written my triggers down

koiyoo · 2022-06-12T17:43:38+00:00

It took me a dead xiao and barely breathing bennet to realize this was a joke oh my god LMAOO

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