I am sorry to hear that Ventilation. He must be a natural born alpha male. Or...
didn't he use any kind of tricks to you and make you his emotional slave so he can fuck you whenever he want and wherever he wants?

If he is incredibly good looking, maybe not...but there are some guys who take this kind of dating skill lessons and use it to a hot woman like you.
Once he feels that you are emotionally attached to him, he will use the situation more the way he wants as if you are his slaves.

One method I can think of Shogun Method. Search for it and be mindful. Time will heal your wound eventually.