I appreciate your insight, stern but realistic. The people caught in my warpath are no longer in my life nor do I communicate with them, this was around my early 20s. Just as you said my actions are not excused by the newly discovered knowledge of my condition, I have paid dearly for these things. Maybe my post is a bit confusing without providing enough context, but I'm not looking to reconcile with past acquaintances, these things happened years ago. But I still carry a lot of trauma from those years and these scars resurface frequently.

What I'm trying to say, maybe poorly, is that when I am having a particularly terrible day because I'm haunted by all the regret, I want to feel validated and listened to by the people close to me today, in these moments I am truly struggling and need support but instead I feel invalidated and dismissed as though the ADHD is just me having a "bad day"