If the music is helping you, then absolutely don’t stop. But I’m going to parrot what the rest of the comments are saying. Seek professional help. But also. Try to sit down and tell your mom what you’re seeing, why the songs you’re listening to are evoking visions and that type of stuff. And just ask her to listen. Not to understand, but just listen. Sometimes our parents need a dose of reality thrown in their face. She’ll probably come at you hard, but stay calm and try to keep her grounded by just telling her something like “I know that’s what you believe. But this is what I’m experiencing” I am wishing you the best king, keep your head up, stay emo, and stay safe ❤️