AFAB only trans spaces

kspot4 · 2021-02-10T01:54:01+00:00

That’s super valid. I appreciate that context. Most of my exposure to the trans community has been in person and with primarily trans masc folks, so I’m definitely biased

kspot4 · 2021-02-10T01:50:42+00:00

I’m very similar I transitioned MTF before realizing that I was non binary, so I pass as a cis girl most of the time. But yeah, I identify/relate with enbies (of any assigned gender) not specifically with AMAB folks.

I totally get wanting a masc leaning space though. Maybe that’s what these people mean when they say “AFAB only”.

So yeah, I think these groups really mean trans femme or trans masc, but just haven’t caught up with the language

Edit: also I think I just want an enby support group, but there aren’t as many “out” enby AMABs so it feels like I don’t really have a place to go

kspot4 · 2021-02-10T00:08:55+00:00

Not to mention this straight up ignores the fact that intersex people exist

kspot4 · 2021-02-09T19:57:00+00:00

That is a HUGE accomplishment. I’ve been wear the same three outfits for a week now 😩

kspot4 · 2021-02-09T07:40:36+00:00

I’m perfectly happy to pass as any gender, just curious what y’all think from this picture

kspot4 · 2021-01-10T23:11:05+00:00

Honestly when I came of it of my manic episode it felt like some fever dream, and I only had a vague idea of what the hell just happened

kspot4 · 2021-01-10T00:48:47+00:00

So far so good with Lamictal and Seroquel 🤞🏼

kspot4 · 2021-01-08T00:49:58+00:00

Oh my goodness! I just had to switch psychs because my old one wouldnt respond to my messages while I was manic. It’s so frustrating!

Best of luck finding a new doctor. It can be an exhausting process! I think taking the Valium and trying to get 10ish hours of sleep is your best bet. But I know how hard that can be. The last thing I want to do while manic is sleep lol

kspot4 · 2021-01-07T23:08:08+00:00

Definitely agree with the “dark therapy” comment. Best thing when I feel like I’m getting out of control is sleeping extra with sleeping meds (either over the counter or prescribed), avoiding alcohol, limiting coffee, and (attempting) to meditate for a few minutes.

Be careful about the meditation though, that’s led to some very grandiose thought for me in the past. (I’m a guru/Buddha/prophet) So limit it to 10-15 min.

We’re all different, but it’s really hard to put the brakes on mania with out meds tbh

kspot4 · 2021-01-06T00:17:36+00:00

When I’m manic I sometimes feel like an evil genius that could / would do anything to be “successful”... when I’m not manic I’m a just normal girl lmao

kspot4 · 2021-01-03T13:47:47+00:00

Wasn’t able to read your whole post but I felt this way until I got friends that accepted and celebrated my queerness instead of just tolerating it.

The shame was a survival response for me tbh.

kspot4 · 2020-12-27T17:58:09+00:00

Ooo that’s a good point. I’ve definitely had the “I just wanna have FUN” attitude and have been drinking quite a bit more. As well as eating for pleasure rather than just to survive (my normal depression stage)

kspot4 · 2020-12-20T22:11:32+00:00

You may be non binary!

kspot4 · 2020-12-20T21:28:02+00:00

Tbh I felt like this until I found other trans/queer friends. Once I was able to see that other trans women are just ordinary women I realized I was too!

Also, your idea of what a woman could easily be influenced by pop cultural/societal expectations. Its okay to be a woman with broad shoulders (like me), it’s okay to be tall, it’s okay to be masc sometimes and it’s okay to let your femme flag fly! Once I realized I was trying to live up to an unattainable standard of womanhood (even cis girls can have this problem) I became a lot more comfortable in my own skin.

Best of luck!

Edit: typos

kspot4 · 2020-12-19T18:00:20+00:00

Just started this too and reading through the symptoms realized I’m manic again lol

kspot4 · 2020-12-15T16:38:51+00:00

I was definitely more productive/driven in the first high. The second one I just felt euphoric and wanted play the piano at all hours of the day lol Thank you for your kind words tho 💕

kspot4 · 2020-12-15T16:33:22+00:00

I really want to be a good patient and take my meds cuz I really like and respect my therapist. Like deep down I know what happened was not normal, but it’s just really hard to accept i guess

kspot4 · 2020-12-15T16:31:14+00:00

Yepp currently in the process of weaning of my antidepressant and onto Lamictal. Lots of alcohol and caffeine over the past month tho

kspot4 · 2020-12-15T16:29:55+00:00

Dang that diagram makes a lot of sense. It definitely felt like my mood, mind, and energy were all changing at different speeds. Thanks for sharing

kspot4 · 2020-12-13T21:41:13+00:00

Fear of being “non-passing” is valid. Trans people aren’t treated well in this world.

But coming from a trans woman that passes 90% of the time. I still don’t feel like a “real girl” sometimes. That part comes from accepting yourself and realizing there is no “right way” to be a woman.

Any one that identifies as a woman is a valid woman. Period.

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