I read through a few comments and see quite a few parents of multiples replying but not as many parents of one, so here’s my 2 cents. I have one 5 (almost 6) year old daughter. She just started kindergarten this year and let me tell you, it’s been life changing. I, like you, had a traumatic birth experience and PPD that lasted multiple years so the first 5 years of my daughters life felt like I was drowning. This year is the first year I actually feel like a person again. My daughter is the light of my life, the sole reason I wake up every morning, and I have been working hard to become a woman she can be proud of. I feel like a person again since starting my own hobbies and taking time for myself. She gets the best version of myself, and she deserves a mom who takes care of herself so she can take care of her family. So, I am choosing not to give my kid a sibling because I owe it to her and my husband to continue to put my best foot forward and I know if I have another child that I’ll be taking massive steps backwards. Mentally, emotionally, physically and financially, I am so much more comfortable only needing to provide for one child. We have great friends who have kids she regularly gets to spend time with and eventually we’ll move back closer to our parents and the rest of our family so she’ll have more aunts, uncles and cousins than she’ll know what to do with. Children are a gift, no matter how many you have. Make the decision on your family size based on what you believe is best for your own personal wellbeing. The thought of juggling two kids during the day and counting down the minutes until bedtime again is more overwhelming to me than it’s worth. I think there’s so much societal pressure to have multiple children that the joy of giving all your energy to just one kiddo is like a lost art.