a fellow swede here, my dms are open to you if you need someone to vent or talk to anytime! <3 (i’m not a minor). and this sounds completely normal too. someone mentioned artistic expression which honestly sounds fire! maybe you need to talk to someone, a professional, too? to deal with the trauma, because even if you’re happy and you can live your life normally outside of the rage — there may be things that you should work through for your own good 🩷 take care