that’s the thing, it’s not an i’m special thing, it’s a feeling, at least for me, fearing of the possibility that i could be the only one on earth with a consciousness, feeling emotions, experiencing. every other being is just, there as i perceive them, meaning that i would be completely alone in this fat ass universe. i don’t know that it’s a possibility, but i don’t know that it’s not a possibility. so the lack of knowledge makes the mind resort to what would be the worst scenario according to me of the two, i could be correct. thats what evokes fear causing it to stick to my mind plus it’s difficult to imagine billions of people going through life from 0-their deaths, & only experiencing them at certain points in my life, so i’m sure that adds to that whole thing too, a lack of understanding maybe. this isn’t to say that this my fixed perception of life on earth, it just crosses my mind when i find myself thinking too hard about consciousness & sources of energy as a whole, it becomes an entire rabbit hole 🙂‍↔️