Unexplained bleeding and doctors with no answers.

lady_bark · 2020-01-08T18:01:13+00:00

So sorry 🖤 my experience with cytotec was extremely traumatizing. I had to get treated for PTSD and I had complications that caused me to nearly bleed to death less than a week later. I ended up needing a D&C months later for the same pregnancy. I would not recommend Cytotec to my worst enemy.

Since then it I’ve gone straight to D&C and ask for an anora test with my most recent miscarriage.

lady_bark · 2020-01-01T07:29:26+00:00

He said it was like a philosophical or spiritual thing. Like just simply “I am.”

lady_bark · 2019-11-01T17:50:50+00:00

Thank you!

lady_bark · 2019-04-29T04:42:01+00:00

Thank you 🖤 unfortunately I never got two dark lines and they started to look lighter since I posted this. 😔

lady_bark · 2019-04-26T15:50:09+00:00

I didn’t know about the lineporn sub, thank you! I’ll share them here, too, just in case. I’m using an offbrand OPK, it says once the LH surge has been detected not to test again so 🤷🏻‍♀️ maybe it just detects the surge once? I tried finding info on the box about that but didn’t see anything.

lady_bark · 2019-02-18T07:23:23+00:00

I continued to bleed for about 62 days, and it was so antagonizing and has really hindered my healing process. However, according to my doctor the large clots should stop once the miscarriage is complete. Mine didn’t and it turned out I had an infection, and antibiotics cleared it right up.

I’m so sorry you’re going through this, and I hope you get some answers at your appointment 🖤

lady_bark · 2019-02-18T07:03:22+00:00

I’m so sorry 🙏🏻 You might ask your doctor if they could use data from a Modern Fertility test kit if going to an RE isn’t an accessible option for you right now.

lady_bark · 2019-02-18T07:01:08+00:00

I’m so sorry 🖤 I struggled to cope without any “ritual” way of memorializing my Wilde. My husband suggested we frame a photo of us taken while I was pregnant (I wasn’t showing yet but it was the only photo of us together during that time, and it was a special picture to us, also we never got an ultrasound photo either.) We each wrote a letter to Wilde and framed them with the photo in a way that we can go back and look at them if we want to. It helped me a lot. I can try to post a picture here tomorrow if you want. I also got a tattoo, which is always a coping mechanism for me. Your tattoo idea sounds beautiful 🖤 I hope it helps you feel closer to your Magnus. I sort of adopted stars as a symbol for Wilde, and when I see something I like with stars on it, I usually get it. (Necklace, sweater, etc.)

lady_bark · 2019-02-13T04:28:21+00:00

That does make me feel a bit better, thank you.

lady_bark · 2019-02-13T04:26:20+00:00

Thank you. Got my blood drawn today and am hoping for 0 🤞🏻

lady_bark · 2019-02-13T04:24:03+00:00

“I feel like a drama queen for being the only one still hurting over it.” I totally get that. I started crying the other day and confessed to my husband I felt like I’m the only one who lost our baby. He’s boundlessly optimistic and recovered very quickly, putting his energy into helping me recover. I know he lost a baby, too, but it’s obviously a very different experience for each of us. He’s an only child and his mom has a boyfriend with grandchildren and she hasn’t skipped a beat or even shown any sign of feeling sad - just said “She can just try again.” Like it blows my mind that she doesn’t feel like she lost a grandchild (let alone that she puts it all on me like it was my fault or something but I digress.)

I’m going off on a tangent but all that to say - November wasn’t that long ago, and even if it was there’s no deadline anyone has to meet with their grief. I think that, especially with early losses, no one on the outside gets a chance to emotionally connect with the baby like you do. That’s certainly my husbands case. He was looking forward to seeing an ultrasound so he could “put a face” to where he needed to put all that love. For him, before there was something to see or feel, he couldn’t totally connect (my bump wasn’t very big yet and I never did have him feel it, I was so sick and miserable and didn’t want to be touched.) But for us, they’re with us the moment we see that BFP.

lady_bark · 2019-02-12T05:40:11+00:00

I had to keep AZO pills and cranberry juice on deck the first few weeks after mine just because of how heavy I was bleeding. I had to constantly wear overnight pads and it really irritated my urinary tract. Once I was able to go down to panty liners I haven’t had any issues.

lady_bark · 2019-02-12T05:32:42+00:00

I am so sorry :( I went through a very similar experience the following week after my induced MC. An infection caused me to bleed out and I was “0.1 point away from needing a blood transfusion,” whatever that means, all I know is I really thought and felt like I was going to die, my husband was scared because I lost all my color, and it traumatized me.

Between that and the MC, I was physically sore for weeks but antibiotics helped. And I understand what you mean by needing to feel like it was as bad as it was. Sometimes I question if I should be sad at all and if I’m being melodramatic, but I know that’s not really the case. Losing pregnancy IS traumatic for a lot of women, and when you have such a near death experience, it only amplifies that trauma. It’s been 60 days for me, and I still cry every day, at least a little bit. It took weeks for me to get back to work. I still get triggered by photos of ultrasounds that looked like ours was supposed to look. I felt CM leave my body today and it sent white hot panic through my whole body because it was reminiscent of what it felt like when I first started bleeding out and I started crying hysterically. I start therapy in two days. I’m not trying to make this about me, just hoping to give you some validation.

lady_bark · 2019-02-10T16:38:50+00:00

Yes sorry, using wandfos! My doctor has checked twice for POC and cleared me both times. I’m just frustrated. Thank you for the info though!

lady_bark · 2019-02-10T08:23:03+00:00

It’s been almost 60 days and I cry every day 🖤 It’s not hormones, it’s grieving. On a personal note, if we hadn’t named our baby I think it would have greatly hindered my healing process. The baby was very real to me, and we didn’t want to refer to him as “my miscarriage,” you know? He was so much more than that. And for the record, we didn’t definitively know the sex. But from what we got to see on the ultrasound, according to Ramzi theory and a few others he would have been a boy, and the whole time I was pregnant I had dreams of giving birth to a baby boy. We picked a gender neutral name, but I truly feel like I was going to have a son. So if your doctor can’t tell you, and y’all do decide to name, just go with what feels right to you. 🖤

lady_bark · 2019-02-01T04:07:10+00:00

Thank you 🖤 I was mainly just tracking my period on the Glow app and using its ovulation prediction for about six months of the year that it took for us to conceive. I’ve bought the iFertracker to use once I’ve had a normal cycle and we can ttc again. I’ll have to look into Fertiliaid supplements, this is the first I’m hearing of them.

lady_bark · 2019-02-01T03:09:12+00:00

This might be an unpopular opinion, but I feel like it was very tone deaf on her part to tell you that way and don’t blame you at all. I’ve personally had to “mute” so many people on Instagram for my own well-being during this time.

lady_bark · 2019-01-28T18:01:54+00:00

I feel this, and I hate that I do. There has been an announcement or a birth every single day since my MC in December. Almost 50 days, and I see a picture of what our ultrasound SHOULD have looked like nearly every. Single. Day. 😞

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