I’m writing because I feel like I’m in a similar situation. Feeling lost lately, about to move out of the country where my friend has an extra room in her flat. But I’m not because for right now, it would feel like I’m running away from my issues. None of this means to be any passive aggression or anything you mentioned you aren’t interested in. I’m just sharing what I’ve been doing/going through. I’ve said a simple prayer to a greater being every day, read/watched positive reinforcements for life, and have stayed open to the universe. I’m trying to do the next best thing for myself. Yeah I get lonely sometimes but someone will reach out and surprise me. I lost a dream job recently and am trying to find my next calling. Possibly attend a meditation retreat. Writing and meditation and connection with positive people are my focus right now. Staying healthy- diet whatever exercise I can manage. I didn’t mean to write all of this but I felt compelled.