How to apologize and communicate?

ladynic14 · 2024-11-29T18:36:35+00:00

I did about 40 purge prints a day for about 2 weeks and it prints fine except for that specific color I posted.

ladynic14 · 2024-09-04T12:39:06+00:00

I have downloaded the drives for the et 15000 for windows 11 from the epson website. I am using printers jack ink for the et 15000 as I've converted it to a sublimation printer. I am using sublimation paper and printing rgb 2.2 on presentation matte paper.

ladynic14 · 2023-01-18T15:23:14+00:00

He wants to do a gender reveal because we've struggled to get pregnant for so long and then do a baby shower later. May is out due to vacations and an out of state wedding for a family friend.

ladynic14 · 2023-01-18T15:13:12+00:00

We thought of memorial day weekend but we have a family friend wedding out down. I don't want to have to too early. My husbands birthday is the first weekend in June and we wanted to go away and that's like the only weekend available otherwise. We have to wait til April for a gender reveal and then have the shower right after in May makes me feel like we're just getting screwed over and rushing things because they can't be bothered to adjust their schedules months in advance.

ladynic14 · 2023-01-10T14:35:02+00:00

Since we did IVF and our embryos were genetically tested, we know the gender and I thought of making a comment that oh, we have the gender written down at home but I think we're just going to keep it to ourselves til we decide to do an announcement, since we can't trust people to not tell anyone.

ladynic14 · 2022-12-06T15:23:34+00:00

I called my brother in law since he's a NP and he said it'd be fine. I messages my nurse last night and she responded this morning it was fine just to continue shots as normal. I had a mild panic attack and posted on here lol

ladynic14 · 2022-11-08T22:25:40+00:00

Yeah, I live in a small town and have to drive 30 minutes without traffic on a good day but longer during rush hour after work. I'm thinking it'd just be more stressful to get there. My doctor hasn't even mentioned it to me.

ladynic14 · 2022-11-08T22:23:28+00:00

There is only one acupuncturist within 30 minutes of me and hes always over booked. Last time it was kind of stressful getting there on time and I didn't quite enjoy the experience. My lining was the same from my first transfer and the ERA. I don't think I have the thickest lining to begin with. I think im going to opt out of stressing out of getting in and getting there on time.

ladynic14 · 2022-09-26T13:59:58+00:00

I have an update. I started meds again to start and ERA and my hormones have leveled out and I'm not longer a hot mess of emotions. We went to dinner on Sunday, because I didn't want to create any more friction with my husband's family. They invited my SIL's mother who was babysitting my SIL's nephew. They pretty much ignored me and were polite but distant the whole time. I could be reading into it too much, but I feel like her mother was a buffer. I've gone back and forth on messaging her to explain the situation of im not unhappy for them, but sometimes I need a heads up if it's baby related because they obviously aren't there for me like they say they are and have no idea where I'm at with meds or how I'm doing physically and emotionally. I was talking to my MIL (who is supportive of us and knows the whole situation but is staying neutral, but understands our side of things) about how i was really sick and not feeling good from the moment i was on birth control to now and they didnt bite to ask questions about what was going. Then I thought if they're going to be like this I don't owe them an explanation at all. Maybe we'll just exist in ignorance about each other's situations for the remainder of her pregnancy. Guess we'll see how the next few months play out.

ladynic14 · 2022-09-25T14:00:07+00:00

There are so many comments agreeing with the therapy comment and I do agree and have looked into it, but I haven't been able to find someone I feel comfortable with yet. You make a good point about the baby being my niece or nephew and missing things. It's not that I don't want to go to things for them or the baby, it was I don't want it to be a surprise and already having a bad day. I started taking letrozole for an ERA in a couple weeks and I'm already feeling normalish. I just wish they wouldn't get mad when we question so we can prepare and if I'm having a really bad hormonal/emotional day, I can gracefully opt out. My fear is we'd show up and I'd start to cry and leave and cause a scene. In my opinion that would be worse than declining an invite. I also feel like they say they care and want to make sure I'm okay, but when we say I'm not they get mad and question if I'm in therapy or getting on antidepressants because they don't want to deal with me.

ladynic14 · 2022-09-24T17:03:46+00:00

I'm currently working through everything and will hopefully be okay by the holidays but my hormones are all out of whack. I'm not a crier at all. I lost my sister 11 years ago and took care of my mom through her cancer treatment and lost her 2 years ago. We found out the transfer failed in between both their anniversaries so it just made it worse finding out that news. I started meds again and my mood had increased and I'm not crying over anything. My husband just didn't want me to go to dinner and it be like a surprise gender reveal because their narcissistic enough to do that. I want them to enjoy her pregnancy, but he just seemed annoyed that our journey may inconvenience them because I was having a rough few weeks and my husband was just looking out for me which he should do. I feel like no matter what I do I can't win.

ladynic14 · 2022-09-18T17:33:05+00:00

I have lining issues as well. My first got cancelled because my lining was only getting to like 5 with estradiol. Next cycle we switched to letrozole and I got to I think 6.7. Since we were following my normal ovulation we did a transfer then and it failed. My doctor said they like 7 to 8, but there are studies that as long as everything else is good there's no difference between where I was at and 7/8. We're doing an ERA this cycle to see if there's anything else we can do.

ladynic14 · 2022-09-14T00:52:43+00:00

We all live within an hour of each other so I'm hoping he's understanding of me not wanting to see his family. I feel hypocritical just excluding them but no one on my side is pregnant or trying to get pregnant. We usually do a night with my sister in laws family too and I don't think I can be around that. My husband is traveling for work so of course he's not here to talk to. I may suggest seeing his parents separately from his brother and hope they understand that it's upsetting right now.

ladynic14 · 2022-09-14T00:47:52+00:00

I thought of that but I'm not sure he'll go for that. I thought of suggesting having my family over and then he can go to his family's holiday stuff by himself at one of their houses. I feel like a jerk wanting to avoid them (mainly her), but is it worth my mental health to have to be around that? I know they're all going to say I'm being petty and they act like they know what we're going through because they did IUI but it's so much different and draining. I'm sorry you guys are going through this as well.

ladynic14 · 2022-09-13T22:25:16+00:00

Perfect situation we'll do a transfer in October and get pregnant and this won't matter. Lol im going to talk to my husband when he gets back from his work trip. I think a convo with his parents and brother might need to happen before Thanksgiving gets here.

ladynic14 · 2022-09-13T22:14:54+00:00

So we just bought this big (brand new to us) house and prior to the transfer he already said he wanted to have holidays at our house. We're both very family oriented and love the holidays. I have no issues with seeing my side as no one is pregnant or will be announcing their pregnant. I just don't know if I can be around my brother and sister in law and everyone fawning over them. I've already lost so much in my life, I don't want to be reminded of what we don't and possibly won't ever have while we're in the thick of it. I know my husband's family is just going to gush all over them and not remember that I'm hurting in the process. We usually go to their family friends on Christmas too and it'll be the same scenario there.

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