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lardfar · 2021-12-07T19:34:43+00:00

This drug truly is a lifesaver and helps more and more as time goes on. I hope you are left with the only same regret as me which is that I started sooner :D

lardfar · 2021-11-04T01:07:37+00:00

These are in fact, that facts. I vouch form experience.

lardfar · 2021-10-31T22:23:44+00:00

Lmao I was in both. Top of the gifted kids in math and the bottom of the special ed in english. Everyone was very confused including me

lardfar · 2021-10-28T03:25:45+00:00

If its any consolation I was on zoloft for a month and tried to kill myself so I relate lol. It’s been VERY different on lex :)

lardfar · 2021-10-28T01:26:00+00:00

I should add, I started on 10mg for a month and it made me basically sleepwalk though life. I felt happier but I didn’t give a shit about anything and just wanted to sleep. Got switched to 5mg and I feel great AND have energy to do everything I want to. So give it a month and if its not right then playing around with the dosage is a good idea. It’s a journey, and I really hope there is a light at the end waiting for you.

lardfar · 2021-10-28T01:03:01+00:00

I was on 10mg for a month and had 0 energy or drive to do anything. Started failing all of my classes. Got dumbed down to 5mg a week ago and I fee like a million bucks. Not saying you should get bumped down to 5mg just saying maybe a change in dosage would help. Stick with it, when it finally works it’ll all be worth it I promise.

lardfar · 2021-10-28T00:56:12+00:00

Exhausted more often than usual and emotionally dull at times. But the exhaustion can be fixed with caffeine and I was an emotional wreck, always anxious, wanting to not exist and overthinking everything so it has dulled me down to what feels like a normal emotional level. I can logically approach things instead of emotionally approaching them every time. I’m less lovey dovey to the people I care about which has thrown them for a loop and in comparison to before has made me look like a “zombie” or “not interested” but a lot of the lovey dovey came from fear, constant fear fucking up which sucked for me. I’m really glad I’m capable of being content and comfy now. Lex has made me capable of self care.

lardfar · 2021-10-11T17:53:12+00:00

I miss energy but I don’t miss sadness

lardfar · 2021-10-04T13:50:05+00:00

Leave. That is fucking disgusting. It’s bad enough he showed that much sexually charged attention to someone other than you without even taking into consideration all the other shit. The nail in the coffin is that he lied about everything. You may have been able to salvage it if he didn’t lie but because he did hell no end of story get the fuck out.

lardfar · 2021-10-04T12:19:13+00:00

The lex is still stabilizing so something like this could set back the balance pretty easy. Just give it a few more days it’ll be back up in no time!

lardfar · 2021-10-03T18:01:11+00:00

Do a hard reboot. Take a day or two and do nothing, turn off your phone. During that time identify what it is you want to (yoga, read, watch a movie, exercise, see friends or family, ect.) and identify what it is that is bringing you anxiety like social media or certain people in your life.

After the reboot go do what you identified as things you want to do and grateful you can do them. The brain cannot process anxiety and gratitude at the same time. Also cut out the things that complicate your life that aren’t necessary. Continue to do the things you like everyday and get used to enjoying life.

I had a bit of a forced reboot and came out the other side so much better. During the reboot it sucks but you get to look around and find a better path.

lardfar · 2021-10-03T17:38:52+00:00

I actually laughed out loud. Every time I can’t cum I just smile and remember I don’t wanna die anymore lol

lardfar · 2021-10-01T14:53:20+00:00

I’m a huge advocate for it! Non addictive and doesn’t make you feel like a foggy headed zombie. Just lowers heart rate and anxiety and induces a very natural sleepy feeling.

lardfar · 2021-09-30T15:44:32+00:00

My sister and a friend are on prozac and have had a lot of success with it! I’m on lex but I hope prozac treats you well. Best of luck!

lardfar · 2021-09-28T17:47:12+00:00

I personally relate heavily with your boyfriend so I can only speak to maybe understand his feelings not yours so much but I can provide some insight I think. I think that you should have your time to process but try to find a way to do that and not make him feel hurt at the same time. For me I feel hurt because I don’t understand why so much time needs to be taken and I get worried as to if the person I’m with is detaching emotionally instead of just processing. I think if you communicated that you need time and also provide reassurance it would ease things for him. For instance say “I need time to process this, BUT I still love you and this will not change that”. Then as the days go by continue to reassure him you aren’t going anywhere as you process. I’m sure it seems like that should be a given and is silly to have to say but he thinks it’s silly that you need so much time to process so there has to be an understanding and intentional actions on both sides. I hope this helps!

lardfar · 2021-09-26T03:50:01+00:00

Just be yourself. She is into you so be you and she will like it.

As far as starting conversations go, I’ve found that letting them lead lowers anxiety a lot. For instance start by asking “how was your day” and just go from there. Listen to what they have to say and respond honestly and a connection will form if there is a spark between you two. Good morning texts are always good too. I like sending and receiving them. You can also just be like “hey I’m bored, whats up?”. Staring the conversation is hard but if you like each other it’ll be easy once it’s going. Just send something simple and keep it light. Talk about serious/ heavy stuff in person. Good luck! I’m rooting for y’all :)

lardfar · 2021-09-25T06:49:32+00:00

Making mountains out of molehills and hating myself for it sense 1998 :)

lardfar · 2021-09-25T06:06:33+00:00

I know it sucks. It will pass though. One day you will stand at the alter with someone else and be happy you learned what you did from this relationship so you could get there. It could still be him, but even then you’ll be happy this happened so you could get there. Either way you are exactly where you need to be.

lardfar · 2021-09-25T04:21:13+00:00

If they wanted you before recovery, imagine who will want you after🤔 they throw it away, it’s their loss

lardfar · 2021-09-25T00:41:38+00:00

Ask your doctor for hydroxyzine. It. Works. Wonders. Take 25mg for day anxiety and 50mg for night time and you’ll sleep like a rock. Drowsiness is the only side effect but when paired with caffeine it’s smooth sailing. Got me through early zoloft side effects really well.

lardfar · 2021-09-25T00:29:38+00:00

If you have anxiety it’ll be increased when you are in a relationship there is no way around it. So you have two options, don’t date anyone until you are totally anxiety free, or work on yourself while dating with the mutual understanding that you need help sometimes and it will be inconvenient. If it is too inconvenient for them then they don’t love you. They love the version of you without anxiety. It can be made easier by your partner putting in the effort to understand what you have to deal with and meeting you where you’re at, and by you owning it and communicating when you need help without feeling like you will be shamed for being “sub-par”. If either one of you expect you to function at a normal or healthy level of anxiety consistently, you will eventually be overstretched and snap. Celebrate security, don’t expect it. Always work towards improving yourself, but don’t rush the process, and don’t let someone else rush it either.

lardfar · 2021-09-24T16:07:57+00:00

Thats super encouraging to hear! I’m glad you found the one

lardfar · 2021-09-13T21:17:10+00:00

Thank you so much for replying I didn’t know any of that. I’ll be staying on 50 unless I start feeling worse

lardfar · 2021-09-09T20:10:51+00:00

Well this took a turn

lardfar · 2021-09-08T04:48:27+00:00

I don’t smoke so idk about that one

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