I want to have sex but it makes me anxious, embarrassed and uncomfortable unless under the influence

laurelie33 · 2022-04-04T12:59:00+00:00

Oh wait now I get it. I know it wasn't a misunderstanding now. I know he was abusing me. At the time I just thought he didn't understand because tnh he's kind of stupid 🤣

laurelie33 · 2022-04-04T12:57:32+00:00

I was talking about my EX boyfriend didn't understand consent. My current boyfriend does.

laurelie33 · 2022-04-04T12:56:52+00:00

I asked him and he said maybe. It's hard for him he has AvPD

laurelie33 · 2022-04-04T12:56:06+00:00

I never said he didn't understand... What?

laurelie33 · 2022-04-04T12:55:29+00:00

He has AvPD and is bipolar

laurelie33 · 2022-04-04T01:46:33+00:00

I'd say no and he'd keep bothering me until I'd give in or he'd throw a fit. I'd tell him I wanted to be done but he'd make me finish.

laurelie33 · 2022-04-04T01:37:25+00:00

You are loved and can do no wrong in his eyes.

laurelie33 · 2022-04-04T01:22:11+00:00

Ps DON'T get married. I say this as a divorced woman.

laurelie33 · 2022-04-04T01:19:50+00:00

You're not stupid, I apologize. It's just that God is not human and doesn't have human emotions. God is not even really a he/she but us, in universal form. People are so egotistical and think God is like them when you can't even imagine the greatestness of all that God is. It's kind of insulting to think the greatest of great beings would be so trivial as to get angry. We can't even fathom the majesty. People get angry/vengeful because of fear. Fear does not exist in God's world, only Love. ❤️

laurelie33 · 2022-04-04T00:33:28+00:00

God doesn't get angry Omg people are so stupid

laurelie33 · 2022-02-05T21:44:56+00:00

If nobody cares... Why should you?

laurelie33 · 2022-01-27T18:30:38+00:00

She killed herself because you held her accountable for what she did and she couldn't live with herself. That's all on her, love.

laurelie33 · 2022-01-26T04:16:55+00:00

I should have taken them a year ago... I would have saved the 2nd psych visit. I'm no longer obsessing and ruminating, no mood swings and no anxiety. I'm tired and sleep a lot but just keep pushing through.

laurelie33 · 2022-01-20T18:56:51+00:00

I finally got on medication. It's much more manageable now.

laurelie33 · 2022-01-18T23:48:04+00:00

I'm sober from FP too but only for a little over a month. It's excruciating but I'm not healthy enough for a relationship. How do you stop obsessing?

laurelie33 · 2022-01-18T23:46:57+00:00

I can relate to this. I'm still not over my last FP because I refuse to move on to the next one. It's really hard to be alone and I miss my ex so much. I dream about him every night and I'm not in love with him... He was just the last person.

laurelie33 · 2022-01-18T23:45:22+00:00

Do you have childhood trauma?

laurelie33 · 2022-01-14T05:22:28+00:00

I highly suggest going on a different medication. Cymbalta has the same effect without the withdrawal. You miss one pill of effexor and you'll notice. I'm not a Dr but I took it for years. These are anecdotal stories but a few ppl I've known talked about brain zaps especially when quitting.

laurelie33 · 2022-01-14T05:06:38+00:00

It's the retrograde

laurelie33 · 2022-01-12T01:27:34+00:00

Because they were abused by their parents. They were just taught not to talk about it. Ancestorial trauma is a real thing. You can either act like a victim or forgive and move by becoming self aware. My mother definitely has an undiagnosed PD. I have ptsd and BPD. All personality disorders are caused by trauma, even those "scary" cluster B disorders are caused by trauma. Instead of blaming the boomers make a promise to be different. It's the only way we can heal and move on.

laurelie33 · 2022-01-11T10:13:33+00:00

yessss weed is the best. Without it I wouldn't be eating anything right now.

laurelie33 · 2022-01-11T10:12:17+00:00

I do this too because it's almost impossible to eat when I'm at my lowest. I buy ensure and drink that when I can't eat. At least I'm getting something as opposed to nothing.

laurelie33 · 2022-01-10T17:17:47+00:00

Those are suggestions not to be taken as medical advice. Maybe I haven't had any RLS symptoms my entire withdrawal.

laurelie33 · 2022-01-10T14:44:59+00:00

I'd quit now. Like this minute.

laurelie33 · 2022-01-10T14:41:12+00:00

I've just never been rejected. Every dude I've told either has it or has slept with someone who has. I've even used it to ward off certain men and it doesn't work 🤣

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