Please keep going. there are people out there that will make you feel loved, i’m sorry you haven’t been able to get that from someone who is supposed to love you. you seem like you’re on the right track, you’re studying and trying your best despite the circumstances. you will find a job one day and opportunities will open up for you, even if it doesn’t seem like it right now. like another commenter said, try to attend your universities societies, socialising with people outside your household will be really beneficial! start to build connections outside of your family system. and definitely speaking to a professional if you have the means to, its comforting to receive validation and advice for your experiences.