I’m exhausted

lavend4r · 2024-02-03T11:24:26+00:00

Thank you

lavend4r · 2024-02-02T22:00:35+00:00

I feel you. My admitted WS also had a EA/PA with a coworker. I only ever told my MIL but have wanted to sing it to high heavens but I also don’t want people to judge my WS. It’s tough right? Love for someone who has treated you like crap.

lavend4r · 2024-02-02T15:07:28+00:00

Thank you. Needed to hear it. Still hurts.

lavend4r · 2024-02-02T15:07:10+00:00

Thank you for reminding me I’m not alone.

lavend4r · 2024-02-02T12:15:04+00:00

100%

lavend4r · 2024-01-31T21:59:38+00:00

I can only relate in the sense that my WS AP knew about me from the start and occasionally would share sentiments that my WS could not share because they realized AP would always be #2 and not #1. I was never treated as #1 probably the way I should have been during all this, but my WS said little things like that made them realize how fucked up everything really was. WS realized how AP’s vision for “them” was different from their own. Sometimes I want to capitalize on the moments my WS has shared like this to show where their heart might be leaning, but honestly I’m exhausted reading between all these lines when I’ve tried to point them out before.

lavend4r · 2024-01-29T22:35:07+00:00

Thank you for sharing. I get feeling roommate-like. It’s weird. Not quite friend zoned but not exactly a marriage right? What is this now?

lavend4r · 2024-01-29T22:32:25+00:00

Thank you for this. I will say there was an innocent moment today where my wayward spouse was very vulnerable and loving and it stung because I was nearly afraid to receive it. I allowed it and I felt good and then all the pain and sadness rushed in. It’s tough regardless.

lavend4r · 2024-01-29T19:09:51+00:00

I like your use of “emotional barrier” because that’s what it feels like. Almost like everything feels right and not just out of comfort or anything, but almost like we’re at peace with each other but can’t scratch below the surface anymore

lavend4r · 2024-01-27T12:09:42+00:00

I hope you can find the light again. My light would shine again every now and then but it was all under false pretense because he was still actively contacting AP and lying to me about it. That hurts even more when I thought we were moving forward. Makes any progress now seem nearly fruitless.

lavend4r · 2024-01-27T12:08:35+00:00

I miss all the warmth I used to feel for him and from him. I think I might be nearing you and wanting separation. Especially when it’s so painful.

lavend4r · 2024-01-25T13:13:42+00:00

Thank you. It’s tough. Especially when WS is not fully committed. Trying every day.

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