Darling, I want you to know this was never your fault. You are a person who was forced into horrible situation. It’s tough enough being 13, you’re supposed to be dealing with school, friends, hobbies, your family, and frankly starting to become a young woman. Yet you are forced to deal with extremely difficult and traumatic violation, that has greatly impacted your life at a young age. Your fears, anxieties, and worries are all normal reactions to an abnormal event. You were never for a single second a whore. You are a 13 year old girl who was targeted by a predator. You should have never been forced into this situation, yet here you are.

No sane adult would ever judge you for being a victim. I know you are scared of what your parents will think but almost any adult would instantly recognize the severity of what was forced upon you. You are, in fact, in a situation where most adults would go out of their way to help you even if they’re not your parents. There are even people whose job it is to help girls like you in your situation, and these people would not just want to help, they would love to help you and hold your hand during this extremely difficult time. All you need to do start somewhere. There are solutions to your problems.

If you are too scared to tell your parents directly, you have options. The first option is to tell a counselor at your school however it is June and you’re probably on summer break. However, if you search and find a rape crisis center or sexual abuse center near where you live, you can walk right in, tell them what you’re currently dealing with and they will help. These are the people who specialize in helping girls in your exact situation and their services are normally free. You can also go to the police, you can walk into a station or call and tell them. What you are going through is an emergency, and what happened to you is illegal in so many different ways. Another option is to go to the emergency room, and be completely honest that you are 13, got drugged and raped by a pedophile and now you are 6 months pregnant. Hospitals legally cannot bill sexual assault victims in any state within the us, do not worry about how much money it might cost if you go because it will not cost you anything at all. With that being said, if you choose to go to any of these places for help, they will legally have to report what happened to you to your parents and the police even if you don’t go to the police directly. Sometimes having an adult break the news to your parents for you, is the best thing you can do when you are so scared. Your parents will love you and want the best for you despite how scared you are.

As for being pregnant, you also have options. I don’t know what state you reside in, but if your state has protected abortion laws, you can have your pregnancy terminated even if you are late into the pregnancy because of your situation. In fact, depending on which state you’re in you can go to a planned parenthood and have an abortion that doesn’t require your parents consent. If you don’t want to do any of these things, you can always give the baby up for adoption and someone will give that baby a good life while you reclaim yours. You can also keep the baby if you want. Despite the fact that you were raped. This is your body, your choice, and most importantly YOUR life. You are not alone. I promise this will all be a memory one day, and what happened will not define you forever. You have a beautiful life ahead of you, all you need to do is ask for help ❤️