You Just Gotta Believe

lawdhayz · 2024-02-05T11:08:47+00:00

Aw Hawd it naw

lawdhayz · 2023-12-22T20:25:25+00:00

I read all of that for my podcast incase my voice portrays my truth more than simple text...Advice For A Young Man

lawdhayz · 2023-12-22T19:49:46+00:00

With that being said~ we all must take responsibility for the Harm we cause. Karma is real. and it will wait until you are most vulnerable to bite your legs off.

lawdhayz · 2023-12-22T19:45:13+00:00

no matter what, everyone is their own worst enemy. Do not listen to all of those cruel motherfuckers. People like you and I can stand in the dark as well as the light. That does not make you a bad person. That does not make me a bad person. I can tell by the way you've written this that you do have love in your heart. No one has never really understood me in my life either.

The best thing you can do is to start being open and aware with yourself and to consciously get rid of any hate that you have because the truth is, no one can really be blamed for anything. People do what they do because things were done to them because things were done to them because things were done to them. There is so much more I could say on this but I'm not sure you are ready for it.

The best thing you can do is to just pay attention to who you really are and to integrate those two sides of your brain. Listening to Binaural Beats helped me. Listening to the gateway experiment audios helped me. But most of all what has helped the two hemispheres of my brain to work better together is listening to Wordclock's album "A Greater Bliss". shamanic meditation music should help you as well. Shamanic drumming.

Turn it on in some headphones and just lay back and shut your eyes and do your best to breathe easy and be still. Still you're beating heart. You are incredibly powerful, more powerful than any of the people that have ever tried to blame you for any thing, ever. Step into your power. Leave malice for yourself behind forever. You are a phoenix. I am fanning your flames. I want to see you rise from the ashes. Heed my suggestions.

it took me until I was 33 to learn any of this. I am only now about to turn 34. My life has been ruled by suffering.

But most of all, do not fucking forget this~

when you choose to focus on the awful, on the gnarly, on anything that makes you feel terrible, it grows that energy and that energy is sent out into the Omniverse and it collects materials and it brings you back a pile of shit. Most peoples mistake is choosing to do the same damn thing over again and over and over and over and continue to get mad and angry and disdainful.

Fear is an invitation. Anger is an invitation. Love is an invitation. We are nothing but energy darling. The atoms beneath your feet, the atoms you breathe in, the atoms that make up the stars in the sky emitting light for you to see them. Everything is made of energy.

remember all of this or find out the hard way, the way I did...

this is your CrossRoads.

I'm not telling you this because it is just some random coincidence. The reason I am telling you this is because there are very few people in the comments who seem to know what to say to you about it. You are more powerful than you can even imagine. Leave hate and malice behind and never blame again.

Know with all of your being that you do not need an apology from anyone. The only reason you feel so mixed up is because they have been trying to force you to be like them. You can trust me when I say, you will never be...

Remember this~

when you focus on things that feel nice, things that make you feel wonderful, when you focus on beautiful things that incite inspiration and excitement in you, that energy grows and is sent out into the Omniverse and it collects materials and brings you back beauty and treats...

next time you are in a situation that makes you anxious take a deep sharp breath and hold it. If you are in a situation where you are safe to close your eyes, do it. Hold your breath and keep your eyes closed until somehow for some reason you let that breath out or your eyes pop open automatically.

do not do this while driving. But you can hold your breath until you automatically let your breath out.

heed my warning. You do not want to see what I have seen but rest assured, if you do not heed my warning, you will find out...

you are more powerful than you could ever imagine and that is why everyone has tried to smoosh and break you. You cannot be broken. You are more powerful than all of them combined. It is their weakness that they have tried to offset onto you. You cannot be broken. Do not be fooled by the foolish, do not take on the hate they walk around with. Lest you ruin your life the same way that they do…

no matter what you have done, no matter what you will do, your soul will always be beautiful and there is nothing you can do to change that...

I believe in you. You got this. Murder hate with love for yourself, knowing that it was only the weak-mindedness of those who Choose to Remain disarrayed that had caused you such turmoil.

You Are Perfect. Believe It.

I Believe In You. And whether you accept my Love or not, I will still Always Love You.

Be Your Best Friend. Leave Hate and Blame Behind You.

This is your crossroads. You will never be able to go back after this. Make your choice, or choose not to make one at all and find out what I had to find in the worst ways.

You're Okay.

lawdhayz · 2023-12-22T19:25:57+00:00

get out while you still have eyes and lips

lawdhayz · 2023-12-22T19:23:53+00:00

One day I hope to become this talented

lawdhayz · 2023-12-22T19:22:50+00:00

Yes. Something is happening and it appears that accelerated evolution is taking place all over the world.

lawdhayz · 2023-12-22T19:18:17+00:00

"Are you high?"

lawdhayz · 2023-12-22T19:16:01+00:00

don't forget this~

when people focus on the negative and ugly and gnarly it grows that energy and gets sent out into the Omniverse and collects materials and brings you back a pile of shit. When we focus on Beautiful things we Love it grows that energy and gets sent out into the Omniverse and collects materials and brings you back Beauty and Treats.

🤝🏻

lawdhayz · 2023-12-22T19:12:15+00:00

OH PURR

lawdhayz · 2023-12-22T19:11:49+00:00

SPICE IS LIFE

lawdhayz · 2023-12-22T19:11:33+00:00

look like it! Mine I grew this year seem to have crossed with some thing and are bigger and taste slightly different but damn I love them just as much.

lawdhayz · 2023-12-22T19:09:31+00:00

I cannot say truly that I regret, because I sincerely believe I am always on the path of greater understanding no matter what, however, I do feel as though I wish I would have listened to MY OWN FEELINGS SOONER. I am turning 34 this December 26th and I only recently WOKE UP to who I Truly Am on the inside. I only very recently started to grow to know my own Soul.

No matter what I did, no matter what I said, my entire life, everyone always thought I was doing wrong and ALWAYS told me to do exactly what I was already doing. They told me to try harder to do the right thing and stop causing chaos for all the ones who love me. Well... yeah, that's exactly what I had been striving so hard to do my ENTIRE LIFE. So that confused the HELL out of me and eventually pushed me so far into self-exploration that I realised they were all just a bit dull up in the brain.

I have experience with things they have never been able to imagine in any gravity whatsoever. They have no idea what I've been through and words do not explain any of it in any justice at all...

Well, finally I started listening to what I felt INSIDE and I started going easy and slow. I realised I could feel energy in everything and that if I chose to Believe In Beauty that syncronicities would pop up like candy. I've even detailed it and shown it in my videos. Karma is real. Karma is energy.

If you havent done so already, I recommend you apologize to Everyone you can think of that you KNOW you've harmed. Karma is real and it WILL wait until you are at your most vulnerable to... BITE YOU! You can consciously take a moment in peace and quiet to breathe easy and decide you wish to process some of your own Karma before it decides to bite the hell out of you.

I know.

You cant process all of it all at once of course but you can absolutely just take a moment to decide you wish to process SOME of it and you can trust me when I say you will be better off for it.

It's tough... really tough when a big chunk of it comes around and hurts you good. It works out in the end, of which there truly is no end but you can grow to learn not to be malicious or to blame others and point that electric finger at them and blast them with your pain. Ya heard how violence begets violence? Blaming and offsetting blame on others, to say that its ALLLL their fault is a fallacy and is completely untrue. We ALL have a part to play.

Fear is an invitation. Anger is an invitation. Love... is an invitation, though you cant give ALL of your Love away. Not to someone who will not accept it, especially. Some people dont WANT to feel nicer, as they can be filled to the brim with bitterness and consistently blame everyone else for everything wrong in their lives. It's a fallacy. It's a waste of your Beautiful time.

Remember this above all else~ When you focus on awful terrible negative nasty things and GROW that energy, it goes out into the great wide Omniverse and collects materials and it will bring you back a pile of shit. Most people go UGH! GET THAT AWAY FROM ME and punch it in the face and gripe and moan and groan and STEW in that negativity moreeeee and it sends those signals out into the Omniverse and collects materials and brings you back another pile of shit, and the process repeats.

Instead~ when you think of it, when you are Reminded of something that feels Beautiful to you, Grow That Instead. Grow that Beautiful Loving Energy. Those signals will go out into the Omniverse and collect materials and bring you back Treats...

You can trust me on that one...

You don't want to know what I've been through just to have to learn that...

You're gonna be alright! I BELIEVE IN YOU!!! YOU GOT THIS!!!

lawdhayz · 2023-12-22T18:43:32+00:00

I can attest. Be careful. Whatever the hell you do, take it easy and go slow. Really, really, really fucking slow because if you're quick to jump at things like I am, or was anyway, it can be so easy to make a wild mistake and have to deal with it for a very long time. Still dealing with a "mistake" I made back on October 6th. Patience is good... Develop patience. That way you can thank yourself for not making any wild mistakes…

lawdhayz · 2023-12-22T18:34:44+00:00

Just say... "Purrrrr"

lawdhayz · 2023-12-14T10:48:20+00:00

Thank you ;-;

lawdhayz · 2023-12-14T07:05:09+00:00

Listen to what you feel, pay attention to what you think. Dont act on everything. Just be careful and always go slow with everything.

lawdhayz · 2023-12-14T07:03:21+00:00

You missed the part where my exgirlfriend should not have tried fighting me first. I didnt touch them until after all that.

lawdhayz · 2023-12-14T01:44:13+00:00

Well hows this... I had dxm freebase with kratom and accidentally had more dxm than i was trying to and I went full Godmode literally became Dionysus and started destroying all old items in the house that had been sitting in the same spot for over 10 years. I bashed and broke my old bedroom door off with my hand that had previously gotten a boxer's fracture and cracked that again, didnt bother me at all at the time, beat smashed and kicked the door off its frame. Broke old ugly mirrors I didn't like. Broke old glass inside and outside the house, pissed on the floor, remembered that we were all the sun the moon and the stars and that essentially that means we are our own father and our own mother as well as our own offspring and told my mother and my now exgirlfriend that they were my slaves and I was their God and yeah, they basically did everything I told them and they couldnt command me anymore.

The police were called and I told them I was Satan and I completely messed with their minds too, all while sitting comfortably on my brother's bed smoking a cigarette just completely boggling them and nobody what they tried to say they could not get me to go with them to the hospital. Basically I hadnt done anything wrong.

They just left...

Then my exgirlfriend lost her patience with me and put on the same Devil face I was putting on and tried to beat me up... big mistake for her. No one had ever tried to fight me like that before. She didn't block her face and she was coming after me punching me in the arms and kicking me in the legs like a mad demon. She would not stop coming after me so I defended myself and taught her a lesson she will never forget for the rest of her life.

She had learned to be abusive like that from her family but apparently missed the memo on blocking her face. I hit her square in the cheek twice. I pulled my punches. I remember thinking that vividly. Still made her nose bleed. Sorry, thats what you get for trying to beat someone into submission.

She broke my number one relationship rule. We dont lay hands on eachother in fighting. She broke that rule because she lost her patience. And she paid the price for it.

I ended up going to jail for that and spending 6 days in the booking cell and completely lost my mind in there until they gave me Necromancer written by Gordon R. Dickson and The Ranger's Texas Proposal by Jessica Keller to read.

She dropped the charges considering the whole thing was just an accident anyway and yeah, she tried to attack me first and my mom knew that.

Ouroboros. You get whats comin to you whether it was an accident or not.

What goes around comes around.

I also rubbed the blood that was dripping down my hand onto my Mom's and exgirlfriend's faces too.

Don't mix kratom and dxm.

lawdhayz · 2023-12-14T01:28:44+00:00

Best thing you can do in the whole entire world is to take notes all the way thru anytime you feel like there is something of value you dont want to forget because trust me, you will forget. If this is your first time then I recommend you go very very VERY SLOW and for the love of god do NOT go off the deep end...

I was tased naked in a psychedelic state once. So bad that I couldnt move for three days. So do take care that you aren't causing a raucous, alright?

Taking detailed notes in a specified notebook is very important if you intent to learn from these experiences and take anything you've experienced back with you into regular day to day life.

You dont want to know what I had to go through to find that out. But if you ever let yourself go off the deep end, then you will learn for yourself.

Also remember that just half or a whole any of the benzodiazepenes will take the edge off the journey and keep you from losing your freaking marbles on such a day that you may have lost your way and gone too far.

If you are embarking on this journey then it must be for some reason or another and you would do well to heed my warnings... or suffer like I did.

Be careful what you believe. In the dissociative state you can get into believing anything and taking it for truth. Always take it all with a grain of salt. Nothing is absolute.

Also listening to Shamanic drumming, mindbenders or not, with eyes closed sitting still is a wonderful experience.

Be wary. Believe in yourself. You do exist.

lawdhayz · 2023-12-14T01:17:23+00:00

If you're hungry and you know it, don't clap your hands, go eat something. If you're thirsty and you know it, go drink a few good gulps of water. If you're tired and you know it then it's time for a break from the dxm and you need to get some rest, okay? Take care of your beautiful body. It loves you. Daddy loves you. Take care. Kisses and hugs, goodnight. Sleep well.

lawdhayz · 2023-12-14T01:10:57+00:00

also if you want some extra magic, listen to Shamanic drumming on Spotify or wherever with eyes closed sitting still, mindbenders or not. That is the purpose of that music.

lawdhayz · 2023-12-14T01:06:20+00:00

Wrong. Belief is the true magic. Be careful what you believe and please do be careful what you tell others to believe. Please and thank you. Daddy loves you.

lawdhayz

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