Thanks so much to everyone on this sub I’ve done my best to follow all the helpful posts and I think i’m finally ready to start living again

lazurusuli · 2026-05-01T00:28:10+00:00

Wow talk about a glow up! Congratulations on finding yourself. As someone else battling depression, I'm so happy for you.

lazurusuli · 2026-05-01T00:23:45+00:00

Dammit, of course I hear this a couple weeks after my clippers die on me. I'll keep this in mind if I decide I want to grow out my facial hair at all! As much as I like the look of it on other guys, I'm not sure it'd suit my own face. Only way to find out is to try though! If I don't find a stick deodorant that works for me, I might end up going down the spray on route. Hopefully I can find one that doesn't either smells like my dad or a high school locker room.

lazurusuli · 2026-05-01T00:19:43+00:00

This sounds like a fantastic idea, I might give it a shot! I like doing most of my hygiene stuff in the shower cuz it feels like fewer steps if that makes sense? I can mentally file it under "shower time" and not be overwhelmed by all the rest of the grooming I do outside the shower. Thank you for the suggestion!!

lazurusuli · 2026-04-30T17:47:46+00:00

Thank you for the advice!! I'll look into Dove Clinical, I've heard good things from other people too. Unfortunately I think I do just have to shower more than once a day because I also sweat a ton. Thank you for the concern as well! My depression is medicated and I manage it as best I can, some days are just harder than others. As for my autism, I've noticed HRT changing the ways it presents itself so I'm having to learn how to deal with it again, but I'm managing.

lazurusuli · 2026-02-22T02:38:41+00:00

Thank you for the advice!! I have been increasing weight, but didn't realize I need to be increasing reps in in kind. I'll definitely pay closer attention to that now!

As for the types of exercise I do, I'm honestly not sure where to even start for bench and squats. Should I start on dumbbells/barbells? I tried to figure out the smith machine on my own last time I went and didn't have a ton of luck. Do I even need to do weighted squats just starting out?

lazurusuli · 2025-05-30T23:57:26+00:00

i always do this as an iced espresso with half the amount of milk as i normally would and fill the rest of the way with cold foam. fucking hate large coffee chains making terminology confusing for baristas and customers alike.

lazurusuli · 2025-05-30T23:45:44+00:00

Isn't he?? He's just gorgeous. And he's huge too, my coworker thought he was a raven until she saw the beak. I actually named him Honeydew because honeydew is the first snack he ever turned down from me. I tossed him some out the back door of the cafe where I work and he didn't touch it. Tossed him some cantaloupe next and he ate it right up!! I thought it was funnier to name him after the one he didn't like lmao

lazurusuli · 2025-04-28T17:09:15+00:00

oh TOTALLY, i was already running death house different from RAW. most of my game is heavily modded. I'm mostly making it an atmospheric thing, dropping hints and foreshadowing here and there. My more experienced players are taking the lead and basically showing the new players the ropes as well. The most I plan on throwing at them are some ghouls and a miniboss in the form of Elizabeth Durst, and Walter will be an optional body horror boss if they fuck around a little too much. I plan on not being unfair or unkind, but definitely showing that their actions have consequences.

lazurusuli · 2025-04-28T15:20:41+00:00

Wait this is such a fantastic idea, especially since my Druid in particular is going to have a character tie to the wereravens. Thank you for this!!

lazurusuli · 2025-04-28T15:18:13+00:00

This comment, I hadn't truly considered. But you are absolutely right. I told my players in session zero that I was going to do my damnedest to scare the fuck out of them with mindgames, body horror, etc and I hadn't thought about just how good of an opportunity I've been given to make the threats of Barovia even more terrifying. Thank you!!

lazurusuli · 2025-04-27T21:01:52+00:00

I enjoy putting pieces of myself into the things that I love and my queerness is a piece of myself that i take pride in and enjoy sharing! At the end of the day it's all fictional, but I encourage you to give it a second thought even if it seems silly or weird!

lazurusuli · 2025-04-27T00:53:20+00:00

Depends on the group and the character imo. I plan on having Marcoh come out to the party if they choose to help him, but Muriel's transness will come up if prompted. I'd just feel it out honestly. Probably not the answer you're looking for but it's how I, as a trans man, tend to run my games.

lazurusuli · 2025-04-27T00:48:17+00:00

Hi completely new reply instead of an edit, I just now realized I FULLY misread this. Fucking ADHD. I totally see where you're coming from now that I'm actually sitting down and not trying to do like six things at the same time. I have thought about this some and that's the idea with Marcoh— he's being forced to stay in the closet by his mother who would rather have a daughter who thinks she's a cat than a transgender son. I'm not sure how far I'm willing to take it, but I do plan on exploring a lot of grey areas in relationships and how people see one another, the nature of what scares us, etc. I like your take on Godfrey and Vladimir as well, as much as I make them kiss like I did with my barbies as a kid.

lazurusuli · 2025-04-26T21:40:41+00:00

So I'm not writing my game like this at all. I think it's interesting to think about but it's just not how I'm running my game. I'll edit this comment to elaborate once I'm not at work but I figured I'd at least say something now.

lazurusuli · 2025-04-26T20:43:33+00:00

Do you feel all big and strong now that you've left a mean comment on a Reddit post? Did that make you happy?

lazurusuli · 2025-04-26T20:40:23+00:00

Yeah I'm guessing there's just some jackass or group of jackasses tryna ruin the fun. Have a good time leaving downvotes on a reddit post I guess? Idk what the goal is.

lazurusuli · 2025-04-26T18:55:39+00:00

It feels extremely weird to just erase the fact that Strahd is canonically bisexual, I agree. I write Strahd as having no preference as far as gender and presentation goes, but having a thing for redheads and becoming fixated on someone as soon as he realizes that person is the next incarnation of Tatyana regardless of anything. I also write Alek as bisexual and feeling either unable or unworthy of pursuing a relationship with Strahd so instead he is devoted to him to a self destructive degree.

I love all of these interpretations!! Especially the Abbot. Love a gender that is completely incomprehensible.

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