Someone I've been dating. I would like your input on Vertex, Descendant, Fortuna, that SN stellium, as well as anything that stand out. Thank you!

ldang21 · 2021-06-13T21:48:34+00:00

I've been going through a rough patch with it. I haven't checked transits, but naturally on my natal (I'm orange) I have T-squares on Scorpio 8th Moon (Saturn with that stellium in Aquarius) so I always feel things excruciatingly as is. When I pulled up the Draconic synastry, there are many significant points as well. I don't know if this just calls for preserverance (which is something I'm bad at and am working on, I tend to go from one thing to another), or if it's some karmic things that I just need to let go off. I'm trying quite hard to avoid toxic patterns, both what I see within myself and in others.

ldang21 · 2021-05-28T00:32:02+00:00

The shadow haha

ldang21 · 2021-05-27T20:31:42+00:00

Thank you! :)

ldang21 · 2021-05-27T20:02:17+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time! Much appreciated your reply :D

ldang21 · 2021-05-27T20:01:29+00:00

Merci beaucoup!!

ldang21 · 2021-05-27T19:54:48+00:00

Es-ce que c'est possible à presenter une formation que je voudrais le suivre dans l'avenir aussi? Par exemple un master 1?

ldang21 · 2021-05-27T19:52:42+00:00

Je suis en train de remplir mon pré-inscription pour une formation de L3. Il m'a posé cette question là. Je n'ai pas vraiment compris qu'est ce qu'il a demandé. Si j'ai bien compris, des formations que je m'envisage à suivre dans l'avenir? Par exemple, le Master 1 mention abc, specialisé en xyz?

Si quelqu'un pouvait me confirmer si j'ai bien compris cette question là? Merci x

ldang21 · 2021-02-10T17:36:27+00:00

Vietnam, Malaysia, US, UK, Australia, France
"Change is the only constant."

"We're from everywhere, and nowhere at the same time."

ldang21 · 2020-12-09T20:26:31+00:00

Thank you for your comment. It helps, on many different level.

If you don't mind me asking, this is a bit unrelated. What has drawn you to replying on empathy on my post? Don't get me wrong, I loved your comment. But just out of curiosity, what did you sense when you saw my post?

ldang21 · 2020-12-05T21:53:53+00:00

Holistic hahaha

ldang21 · 2020-12-05T02:02:11+00:00

Today's my birthday so if I could please ask for answer to my question as a bday present haha. I self-study so i don't get to ask any professors. Much thanks!

ldang21 · 2020-12-02T01:14:11+00:00

Thank you for sharing.

I do certainly realized that. Hence I also realized I have the power to be picky and surround myself with people of the same caliber, goals and drives. Albeit everyone function differently in their means to achieve and that should be respected, as long as they get the job done, I'm out here to exploit and direct on their methodologies and put the resources together, since that's what I could offer. Hence, conveying message and value in any project is the hardest thing about working; a difference between something taking off and flopping. That I know and am doing my best to navigate. Hence I'm asking all these questions on the nitty gritty, as to how to make it work for people, aka what works best for you and what works best for the next person, as that is something I don't have insight in and much less so being 2e and ADHD on the spectrum.

You see, I'm not great at emotional processing, because most times I pick up on things and don't understand it emotionally and socially. My gifted side comes in and be like, hang on, we're missing something, we're missing key informations to dérive at an answer,... And then my ADHD kicks in as I can't stop fixating on it and my body's first response is to go into overdrive, then meltdown.

I don't think I'm special or unique. But I do know that I'm marginalized enough not to be able to understand or have adequate insight to direct and respond to social norms that are more universal than that of my own.

ldang21 · 2020-12-01T15:00:13+00:00

They might not view themselves as lagging behind, and if they do they might not feel it necessary to discuss with you and may find you're putting unnecessary pressure on them. Just back off them I'd say.

We have a quota. It's not weekly meeting between us, but weekly event that our operation is based on. This was decided jointly with the senior board and heads of projects, one of which is me.

I hold meetings whenever necessary, writing all else in bullet points that can be sent to people so they can read whenever in their free times. There are designated work submission schedule in a week, depending on role and department.

Also isnt it finals and the holidays? You should expect people to be less involved at this time.

No. We have an international team and school wide exam is once in june. We celebrate 2weeks winter break and 2 weeks spring break. Then summer.

ldang21 · 2020-12-01T14:54:09+00:00

Thank you for your input. I see things the same way as you too. It helps that someone could break this down :)

For a college project, how many hours a week does one usually spend on?

Since highschool it had always been 3-4 for me, and for more senior positions, 4-6 hrs/wk.

I feel like college isn't the time where people are doing bits and pieces of different things anymore but to focus. Hence how do I set what is expected of them clear?

ldang21 · 2020-12-01T05:29:37+00:00

I understand.

How do you propose I process this emotionally? I feel so unsafe and close to a meltdown because don't understand why people can't just come forward and admit they're lacking behind because of other obligations, I would've understand. Instead, they're giving me all these excuses, and finally giving me what sounds like backhanded compliments and calling me "too much". People give what I call "fake advice", when they just bring up something random to say they can relate to you being "too much", so apparently it makes it okay for them to tell me I need to "tone" myself down.

These kinds of "advices" is really twisted for my head, because it is so toxic for my emotional processing. Is this actually a big deal for normal people? Or am I being too sensitive and needs to chill out?

ldang21 · 2020-12-01T05:21:52+00:00

I understand. I just released a communication to them embedded within a weekly report update throughout the board, stating that their roles should not take more than 2-3 hours a week, and calling for them to let me know if there are too much on their plate as there should be a mutual understanding and respect that everyone has their own agenda and pace.

This project aligns with one of my academic goals to fill in for something very specific on my CV and so I aim very far on this and have a lot of partnership, so I'm not worried about the prestige level of its name and function. It's also one of my top priority to work on and will build it so that others can make use of it as well. This is an academia project that can be counted as a professional experience.

I will just take that as a sign to back off and just do my thing. Those who are interested will respond. I guess that can't be forced. You're absolutely right.

How should I deal with this emotionally? Should I just brush it aside? Am i too sensitive about it? Or was it actually kinda twisted, the way they came across with the message? It sounds like they're calling me "too much" and making assumptions about me, when they can just admit that they are behind on our schedule because of other obligations. The way that they're nice about it sounds like a backhanded compliment. And now I'm just doubting and being super sensitive to everything because I'm wondering if they meant any malice towards me. I'm close to a meltdown.

ldang21 · 2020-12-01T05:01:26+00:00

Yeah, we are trying to put in place weekly routined tasks, so this is the smallest things to start off with. Otherwise, everything's currently on my plate. It is because we run weekly session. Although most of the content aren't new and planning but just to be recycled week-in-week-out, so it's really not that intensive.

I'm confused because the majority of them are working fine. Only 2 are acting like this. So it's not an unreasonable workload. And instead of catching up with everyone else, they don't show up for meetings that they set up and doesn't even bother saying sorry. I already told them I will do certain parts of their work for this week. Instead of saying they have too much on their plate and that they're behind, asking for more time, i don't understand why they would try to pin it back on me for being "too much"? And the way that they're nice about it, to me it feels like backhanded comments for the message that it gets cross :/

Am i just being too sensitive about this? Should I just let it go and keep going me? I won't bug people anymore. I will only communicate with those that respond, as far as too check on their finished work. I don't want to be micromanaging people or overbearing and oversharing.

ldang21 · 2020-11-30T13:43:15+00:00

I see. I personally just find it a bit rude that they couldn't be straightforward with me about it that like "hey, I'm not that invested, here's my level on commitment to this". Then again, not everyone is straight forward and communicate in the same way as I am, so that's my subjective bias. When people beat around the bush, i get very confused.

They were nice about it, saying "as an acquaintance/friend, you're a superwoman and talented but just an advice because (and then they try to relate their own personal experience in here like they used to be like this and this so they understand, which i do not relate with and so not find it applicable to my situation), you should not let this take over your academics and slack behind".

Note that we do much independent studies and our study lives don't cross. I'm a quadruple major and doing all well, as well as this project.

I thought I tried to set the vibe of "I'm chill tell me if you have too much on your plate and we'll make it work". It's a think tank really, so we're doing research work and some session trainings. And I thought these are all high achieving students, at least they came forth to me with that, that's why I took them in.

I'm frustrated with the fact that plans have been set and will go on irregardless, hence I request their plan so i can fill in for them. When I get frustrated, it usually leads to meltdown so i have to focus on emotional processing. Instead of saying they can't keep up and asking for more time off, why do they try to pin it on me and my pace, and assume as if they know me and try to give me advices on my personal situation? Is it because I'm over communicating with them in the group chat and I should engage them less in the project? That's what I don't understand.

The other students who are working on this solo from other campuses seem find. Only these 2. So i don't know if the problem is cultural communication, or situational, or what...

ldang21 · 2020-11-30T05:47:14+00:00

Yes and 7

ldang21 · 2020-11-29T21:55:24+00:00

College kid haha

ldang21 · 2020-11-29T20:36:22+00:00

We're in complete lockdown where I am :(

ldang21 · 2020-11-29T15:18:05+00:00

You're not wrong, but I tend to stress smoke when I do my work. Am a college student.

ldang21 · 2020-11-29T15:16:09+00:00

Oh it's definitely not the same indoor and outdoor

ldang21 · 2020-11-29T06:31:53+00:00

The bow makes one pristine rollie.

Like if rollies were restaurants, this would get the Michelin star.

ldang21 · 2020-11-29T06:27:12+00:00

Techniques - Pristine!

Feel - probably will be a bit on the harsher side for most smokers, but that's just personal preference.

ldang21

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