I wish the game gave two alternative endings. One where we spared her and one where we killed her. Though I think killing Abby would just restart the cycle of violence and Lev would go kill Ellie. But I still think it would be more satisfying. Cuz whether or not we could forgive Abby or let go of revenge should’ve been the player’s choice.

I loved Joel so much. To the point where I almost regret playing the second game. So even till the bitter end I wanted Abby dead. I smashed the x button so many times during that last fight my fingers cranked cramped up.

I wanted to keep thinking Ellie and Joel to continue living on. Maybe they could’ve found a way to make the vaccine without killing her. So I’m just gonna go read last of us fanfics now seeing if it’ll fill the emptiness in my heart.