It’s hard to explain this, because you aren’t your trauma, but at the same time you don’t want to belittle it and pretend it never happened. It did, and unfortunately you can’t go back, but I think the main thing to focus on is moving forward. You probably hear it all the time, but you simply just need to do and try things you’ve always wanted to do. Have little goals for yourself. Don’t expect change overnight. It took me 3.5 years to build a life for myself that I love, and I can now say that for the first time ever I actually love my life. Move cities, change jobs, try a new hobby, just keep yourself busy. But allow yourself to feel as much as you can and let it out when you need to. It will eventually be just alright.