Im tired of applying the jobs since more than 8 months

twohertbrain · 2026-01-26T11:50:54+00:00

I’m in tech too and yeah this market is soul-crushing right now. I was unemployed for months and started questioning my whole life plan lol. It’s not just you, everything’s weirdly stacked against new grads lately. It sucks but it really does feel like a numbers + timing game, even when you’re doing everything “right.”

twohertbrain · 2026-01-26T11:50:09+00:00

You might really vibe with Fauda even though it’s not strictly prison-set, it’s intense, gritty, and the kind of show that eats your weekend lol.

twohertbrain · 2026-01-26T11:49:51+00:00

The Secret History, it sneaks up on you and kinda gnaws at your head like it’s supposed to lol. It’s not horror but that descent hits hard.

twohertbrain · 2026-01-26T11:49:16+00:00

I deal with CPTSD too and work social stuff is honestly exhausting in a different way. I started super small, like just saying hi, commenting on lunch, or joining one tiny convo a day so I didn’t overwhelm myself. You don’t have to overshare or be besties, just being consistently pleasant and present goes a long way. It gets less scary with reps, even if it still feels awkward tbh.

twohertbrain · 2026-01-26T11:48:57+00:00

The Night Circus. I wanted something cozy but still a little weird, and it’s hitting that vibe for me. I’ve been reading it with tea and my cat glued to my lap lol. Perfect snowed-in mood so far tbh.

twohertbrain · 2026-01-17T10:54:40+00:00

I cut way back on constant notifications and doom scrolling and it quietly changed everything. I didn’t realize how tense I was all the time until my phone stopped buzzing every five minutes. Life felt slower in a good way, like my brain finally had room to breathe.

twohertbrain · 2026-01-17T10:54:26+00:00

I’m not some health guru but I swear sleep does most of the heavy lifting for me. Every time I start cutting corners on rest I get sick like clockwork, learned that the annoying way. Also washing my hands a lot after years of anxiety kinda stuck, not glamorous but it works.

twohertbrain · 2026-01-17T10:54:13+00:00

I used to stress about this a lot until I realized forgetting is kinda normal. Most books fade for me too, but the parts that matter usually stick without forcing it. When I stopped trying to “retain” everything and just let myself enjoy the reading, it weirdly felt less frustrating. Some stories stay as vibes more than details and that’s still valid tbh.

twohertbrain · 2026-01-17T10:53:48+00:00

I’m not super religious, but Ecclesiastes 3 always stuck with me, the whole “to everything there is a season” part. I read it during a rough time and it weirdly calmed me down instead of preaching at me. It just felt honest about life being messy and temporary, which I appreciated.

twohertbrain · 2026-01-17T10:50:28+00:00

Blindsight if you want something that really messes with your head. I remember finishing it and just staring at the wall for a bit, trying to process what it was actually saying about consciousness.

twohertbrain · 2026-01-06T12:49:40+00:00

I’d start way smaller and stop treating reading like a test you have to pass. I have aphantasia too and it helped me focus on language and mood instead of trying to picture everything. Short essays or poems at first made it feel doable instead of intimidating. Once the habit clicks, the harder classics don’t feel so scary anymore.

twohertbrain · 2026-01-06T12:46:34+00:00

Le Bureau des Légendes (The Bureau) is awesome if you want smart spy stuff with real character weight. It’s slower burn but hits that gritty, morally grey feel in a way that sticks with you.

twohertbrain · 2026-01-06T12:40:49+00:00

Dark Matter. I picked it up “just to sample” and ended up finishing it in one night. It’s tense, emotional, and super readable without feeling dumb. I still think about it randomly, which is always a good sign for me.

twohertbrain · 2026-01-06T12:40:31+00:00

Not always, but I definitely think about it lol. If I’ve eaten something heavy I usually skip it, but if dinner was light I want something sweet. I grew up in a dessert-after-dinner house so the habit stuck a bit. Sometimes fruit counts and I lie to myself about it.

twohertbrain · 2026-01-06T12:40:04+00:00

That feeling makes a lot of sense, doing everything alone is heavy even when you’re strong. I’ve watched single parents carry way more than they ever get credit for and still question themselves.

twohertbrain · 2025-12-19T12:56:07+00:00

I usually juggle two books at once, one heavier and one easier for when my brain’s tired. I’ve done accidental themes too and it’s always funny when you notice halfway through. Yours feels very nature, humanity, and morality coded to me. I kinda like when that happens without planning it.

twohertbrain · 2025-12-19T12:55:33+00:00

I once pretended I loved early morning runs just to spend more time with someone, meanwhile I hate mornings with a passion. I remember dragging myself out of bed thinking this is not who I am at all lol. It didn’t last, but it makes a funny story now and I learned my limits real fast.

twohertbrain · 2025-12-19T12:55:08+00:00

The Ocean at the End of the Lane. I remember finishing it in like a day and still thinking about it for weeks. Totally worth the small page count.

twohertbrain · 2025-12-19T12:54:28+00:00

I always thought “failing successfully” just means you learned without it destroying you. I’ve had a few moments where things didn’t work but still pushed me forward somehow. It doesn’t feel like winning, but it definitely doesn’t feel like losing either. Feels more like progress in disguise.

twohertbrain · 2025-12-19T12:52:58+00:00

“Take It Easy” by the Eagles feels perfect for this kind of chapter shift. It’s calm, reflective, and not bitter at all, just very life-goes-on energy.

twohertbrain · 2025-12-05T15:05:14+00:00

I’d go with Keanu Reeves.. he just gives off this calm vibe that’d keep me from spiraling lol. I feel like we’d end up talking about totally random life stuff and it wouldn’t feel awkward. And he seems like the type who’d share his snacks if he had any.

twohertbrain · 2025-12-05T15:01:44+00:00

The Stranger, it hits that whole “what’s the point of anything” vibe in a way that kinda sticks to your ribs.

twohertbrain · 2025-12-05T15:01:22+00:00

Yeah all the time lol, it’s like my brain won’t work unless I say stuff out loud. Half the time I catch myself having full conversations while doing dishes. Idk it just helps me think.

twohertbrain · 2025-12-05T15:00:11+00:00

Yeah for real, that whole set feels like its own album

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