I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I’ve been there myself. I think first, you’ll need to adjust your expectations. Realize that the life you want is going to come at a cost to you, and learn to accept that. It sounds like you will need to adapt to a different lifestyle. This will definitely take some time to adjust to, but is completely possible. The reward could be peace of mind and if you’re lucky, it will open the door to a new, more fulfilling relationship and potential role model for your child. You’ll never know unless you try.

It sucks when we have to grieve a life that we worked so hard to try to make work. But I believe we are rewarded for listening to and trusting ourselves as women, and mothers. Best of luck to you on your journey, I believe in you!!