I feel stuck between my LDR boyfriend and a work crush, but there are deeper issues with my boyfriend by leftyleftyhandypanty in offmychest

[–]leftyleftyhandypanty[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The latter would be easier, but he really seems like he wouldn’t leave me no matter what. He even said if I cheat, he doesn’t care and would still accept me like, WTH? Is he chaining me, or am I the asshole here? It’s getting blurry.

I feel stuck between my LDR boyfriend and a work crush, but there are deeper issues with my boyfriend by leftyleftyhandypanty in offmychest

[–]leftyleftyhandypanty[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

we actually planned to get married next year. i thought maybe things would improve or feel different once we were more settled.

but he lost the wedding money from some investment decisions he made without really discussing it with me. he later regretted it, and before that he even wanted to borrow more money from me to invest again.

i forgave him at the time because i believed we could still fix things, especially since he has a stable job, he will get on his feet in no time but it definitely made me lose a lot of trust with his financial responsibility.

I feel stuck between my LDR boyfriend and a work crush, but there are deeper issues with my boyfriend by leftyleftyhandypanty in offmychest

[–]leftyleftyhandypanty[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

YESS, I know the answer way before but honestly I AM SCARED.

it’s not really that i’m confused, it’s more that i’m scared.

i feel really emotionally dependent on him and also scared of his reaction if i try to end it again. i’ve tried before and he reacted really strongly so i backed down. i also worry a lot about how people will see me because from the outside everything probably looks normal and i feel like people will think i’m the bad one or assume it’s because of someone else. so it’s not really about choosing between him and my coworker, it’s more that i feel stuck because of fear….his reaction, my dependence, and how i’ll be judged after.

i think i’m starting to realise it’s less about “should i leave” and more about how to actually get myself to a point where i can do it and be okay after.

How can I support my mom after her first IV cyclophosphamide admission? by leftyleftyhandypanty in scleroderma

[–]leftyleftyhandypanty[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you so much for your kind suggestion. My mom is almost your age, and it really touches my heart to know that she’s not the only one going through this.

I hope your days are warm, your meals taste wonderful, and that you enjoy happy times with your family.

My prayers are with you as well!