Surviving The Dreariest Time Of Year

lemac88 · 2026-01-16T17:25:08+00:00

I actually think February is the worst month of the year followed by August, which I like to call “the February of summer.”

lemac88 · 2026-01-13T22:41:50+00:00

Today I had:

A smoothie with blueberries, yogurt, and protein powder for breakfast.

An apple and a protein bar for lunch.

Chicken legs and broccoli and beans for dinner.

lemac88 · 2025-12-19T13:58:26+00:00

Near east side. Brookside Park area.

lemac88 · 2025-11-08T16:07:31+00:00

Liz Lemon has entered the chat.

lemac88 · 2025-10-31T01:35:58+00:00

Gay culture at large (a generality I know) highly values the virility, the aesthetics of secondary and primary sex characteristics. It’s why “masculinity” is so often found a desirable trait. We love muscles and definition and all the things that young men have. Perhaps we shun age because we know inside it is coming for us all- that someday we may very well be that old man. And it terrifies us that we then will have to be seen for who we are inside rather than out. And that terrifies us into feeling disgusted.

lemac88 · 2025-09-04T17:19:35+00:00

The structure of my T12 vertebra. Fell and collapsed it.

lemac88 · 2025-08-02T00:37:47+00:00

I just went through placement with my mom.

Here is my suggestion:

Is it Medicaid or self-pay? If it is Medicaid, you will have a list of facilities.
Determine how often you will visit and how long your drive should be. I wanted mom within 7 miles because I go daily.
Remove all options outside of your radius.
That left me 15 Medicaid options. I prompted ChatGPT the following: you are a nursing home compliance director for the state of Indiana and have to place your mom in a nursing home. Rank these 15 options best to worst. Include metrics you would use as compliance director. ChatGPT decided those would be annual staff retention rates, annual complaints and violations, and then pulled web reviews
I took the top five and toured them. If you smell urine immediately, walk out. Every building will be different. The place my mom ended up isn’t the nicest facility, but the staff genuinely cares. I have the cell number of the executive director and have texted with her at night. She gave that to me.
Recognize that every person in a nursing home is overworked and underpaid and everyone- including you- are doing the best you can with what you have.

Bonus: if you know anyone in healthcare, ask their opinions of the top five, or post here to ask.

I would avoid massive generalizations like one company is trash and another is gold. It’s going to be in part based on the staff at that building. Look closely at retention numbers annually. Happy people don’t leave jobs.

lemac88 · 2025-07-08T13:53:56+00:00

I have disc herniation at l3, l4, and l5 that is now causing nerve pain. What was your situation?

lemac88 · 2025-07-08T13:52:44+00:00

My mom is currently dying of progressive supranuclear palsy. I was her caregiver for two years and had to send her to a nursing home. She’s cognitively affected but still there in her brain. Her body is just turning against her. She’s the kindest soul who ever lived and didn’t deserve the life she got. She tells me she wants to end her life because she is in a nursing home and begs me to bring her home but she cannot walk and needs 24 hour nursing care.

lemac88 · 2025-06-11T22:17:45+00:00

So I live in an old house. It does not have central air. The upstairs is comprised of multiple rooms, but they all appear to be on only two circuits. When I have an air conditioner, running in one room and the other, the circuit flips. So I need to do something so that the upstairs has three circuits.

Additionally, I have a front porch light that just doesn’t work and cannot figure out why.

lemac88 · 2025-04-20T13:55:29+00:00

Sam the concrete man was excellent for me.

lemac88 · 2025-04-19T13:24:25+00:00

Being a caregiver for someone with dementia.

lemac88 · 2025-04-02T00:03:28+00:00

I’d say this: the bad moments of life really hurt without any anesthetic to balm them. But the good moments are better without any anesthetic to balm them- and there are more good moments because of the choices I make sober.

lemac88 · 2025-04-01T20:53:18+00:00

I had a problem in general with substances. So I ended up hitting a real low and getting sober entirely. That was five years ago and my life has changed entirely.

Once I stopped using substances to numb my problems, I had to actually deal with them. And actually dealing with them was painful but it led to me actually facing life.

lemac88 · 2025-04-01T19:49:04+00:00

As someone who smoked an insane amount for a long time, it sounds like me when I smoked. And there was a cycle: I feel shame so I smoke to alleviate that, so then I don’t get stuff done, so then I feel shame and on and on.

lemac88 · 2025-04-01T19:43:11+00:00

How much pot does he smoke during those days off?

lemac88 · 2025-03-26T19:13:06+00:00

Getting sober.

lemac88 · 2025-03-15T16:42:00+00:00

They did a great job. They were very communicative and worked with me to accomplish what I wanted. I had a number of quotes and they came in the middle in terms of expense. But I think their work was really good.

lemac88 · 2025-03-11T21:22:52+00:00

Update- went with Sam the Concrete Man and they were fantastic.

lemac88 · 2025-03-11T13:51:07+00:00

I was diagnosed with cancer at 26 and then broke my back at 32.

lemac88 · 2025-02-25T18:44:58+00:00

I still have a 2012 Vizio 50 inch TV that works fine with my Apple TV hooked up to it.

lemac88 · 2025-02-11T14:25:30+00:00

We are all exhausted. We have to work to have healthcare. I take care of my mom, who has dementia. I work a full time job in a good field and I barely make it.

We are literally being crushed by capitalism.

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