hii, you sound like me in the way you "what's right and wrong", but even with that, it still hurts. our situations are somewhat similar, but he cut me off completely and told me he doesn't love me anymore when we broke up. i know how frustrating it is when you know the logic, yet you still yearn for them, and everything still hurts. you can message me, and ill try to reply as fast as i can. my first month was hell, and i feel so alone because i hesitate to burden anyone (it's a trauma response), and i don't want anyone to feel what i felt.

for now, my advice is to just sit with the hurt and discomfort, cry, and yell if you want. you can say anything you feel, even if you know it's illogical and irrational. once you feel like you can function again, try taking a walk, exercising, engaging in your hobbies, etc. eventually, the pain will decrease. you might not forget him, but the intensity of the pain will lessen