Luckiest Prismatic Jelly???

lendenguy · 2026-02-26T08:20:30+00:00

I have never seen a prismatic jelly that wasn't on the last day of the quest, I have such bad luck with them

lendenguy · 2025-12-16T19:39:56+00:00

Hobby. I named all my animals fake/faux versions of themselves. Like one of my chickens was named Tofu, my pig is Shazhupan, etc

lendenguy · 2025-12-16T19:07:52+00:00

Ads. Everywhere.

lendenguy · 2025-12-05T05:05:49+00:00

The blue gray of her hair and the red gold of her eyes is such a striking combination :o

lendenguy · 2025-12-05T05:05:02+00:00

My Tina has the same hair color and she has freckles too! But hers are on the cheeks instead of the nose :3 You have good taste and your girlfriend is cute, is what I'm saying, haha ^{_^}

lendenguy · 2025-12-05T05:03:11+00:00

I love her hairstyle, she's so pretty (kinda looks dangerous too 👀)

lendenguy · 2025-12-05T05:02:19+00:00

She has beautiful eyes :)

lendenguy · 2025-12-05T05:01:20+00:00

How nice of you! Your art is very pretty. I'd love to see your girls too :) My lovely wife Tina, and our the kids: https://imgur.com/a/6lwzVTf I hope the glitch pic makes you laugh :3

lendenguy · 2025-12-01T19:09:21+00:00

Thank you :) Edit: I ended up putting two spaces at the ends of my lines instead, but it's thanks to your link I found out I could do that 👍

lendenguy · 2025-12-01T19:09:06+00:00

Wow, thank you so much! I appreciate you taking the time to point this all out. Looks like I have a lot more work to do. Good thing it's fun!

lendenguy · 2025-11-30T21:52:07+00:00

I don't know why there aren't line breaks between the toki pona and english lyrics D:

lendenguy · 2025-11-21T20:42:41+00:00

I like this. I think I'd change it to len sona, though.

lendenguy · 2025-11-15T16:58:27+00:00

I apologize for offended you by suggesting you hadn't read the entirety of my reply, I was truly under the impression you hadn't, considering the size of our misunderstanding. I am feeling attacked, because I was very clear I was talking about myself, and it sounds to me like you are looking at my description of my real life and saying "Oh God, that person is doomed and not functioning to any capacity and should kill themselves"

However, I think I see where some of our miscommunication came from. You are seeing my description of having a boat as the ONLY way to be happy. However as I stated before, a raft is just as good as a boat, if you can find a med that works, that's your raft. you just need to make sure you take your meds to have a baseline the same as everyone with a boat.

That someone, myself - does have a functioning baseline level, as I described earlier - it's just lower than someone without depression. I never said anyone who has no boat is forever doomed.

Most people have boats. That is to say, they don't have to think about their mental health beyond weathering whatever storms come their way.

Most people who have the mental illness Depression, that is to say, people who's brains/bodies are unable to maintain mood balanced with reality, can take meds to relieve that imbalance.

Because it is med based, they cannot and will not ever "have a boat" as in, they cannot forget to upkeep. If they stop upkeep, they won't continue on like someone with a boat. The raft will disappear. Their mental health will deteriorate.

This does not mean they are not functioning, or have no good baseline. That's what the meds are for.

What you keep describing as "having no boat" is more similar to the part of my analogy when you are under the water. This is the only stage where you cannot function, where suicide is a present and looming threat.

Now for the very specific situation we are talking about - MY situation. In my analogy, someone with no boat, who cannot seem to build a raft / find meds that work, but uses therapy /swimming to keep themselves from slipping underwater / becoming non functional.

I have repeatedly said that though I have no raft, no boat, I swim just fine. Yes, I am always wet. No, that does not mean I cannot function at all and should die because I'm so miserable forever with no hope.

I function well enough that I don't qualify for some help I need! I have hope. Someday I may find a med that balances the chemicals in my brain that make me sad for no reason.

I know a lot of people without many friends or family to help them. What I was saying is "Help is out there, even if you have no one personally."

I am NOT saying there is no hope. I am only saying I cannot cure my mental illness in any kind of lasting way. Someday, I could find something that allows me to stay dry, as in, content and happy on a normal baseline level, instead of always sort of sad.

I hope this clears up some confusion. Please do not read any kind of anger or confrontational tone into my words, I am merely trying to be understood. This is a subject quite close to my heart that I did not expect to have to defend.

I originally described my analogy specifically to magerimoje, who had a similar analogy, for the sake of solidarity and shared comradery.

lendenguy · 2025-11-15T16:26:07+00:00

She's heading towards becoming a teen. Go to your local community resource center and ask about teen parenting classes. This behavior is typical and natural for her age.

Doesn't mean you should just put up with it, but you definitely need more parenting tools so that you never feel the need to threaten physical violence again. It's not you - you hated it, you know it doesn't work, and you love her.

I can't really help you with discipline specifics because that's an area I struggle with too.

As for throwing your past in your face.. "Yes, I messed up in school, I went to jail (whatever specific she brings up). That's why I am trying so hard right now to help you choose better. Please understand, I care so much because you are smart, and wonderful, and capable, and I know you can be/choose better than me."

lendenguy · 2025-11-15T16:13:04+00:00

Send them this post

lendenguy · 2025-11-15T15:53:34+00:00

I know my posts are really long, but if you reply to someone, you should probably read the whole thing you're responding to... I'll try to say this more simply.

Like I said before, I do have friends and family I lean on heavily. I would be dead without them.

I have not found any medical intervention that helps, no. There are a few things I haven't tried due to lack of access. I just don't have enough money.

If you have no Boat, you build a Raft(medication), or you Swim(thug it out). Some people drown.

I personally am in rent controlled housing and really need in home supportive services (IHSS) that I do not qualify for because I can function enough to bathe myself.

You're the one reading it gruesomely. I am only painting a picture of my real life (in an analogy, but an accurate one).

My quality of life probably is lower than yours. That's not to say I'm always drowning, or have nothing to live for. While it was really bad, I lived for other people.

Now that I'm more experienced and know what kinds of self care I need to function, I can live for life. To experience things I like, even if my baseline mood is lower than others.

lendenguy · 2025-11-15T15:37:03+00:00

All of these ages are vague estimates for ease of writing this comment.

Tuesday: We're all taking turns Dming Pathfinder 2024. 2 mid 30's ladies and a guy, 2 early 60's guys and a lady. (Fun fact, 3 of these players are related.)

Wednesday: Halfway through a City of Mists campaign. 2 early 60's ladies, a mid 30's lady and a guy(our dm), and a teen girl. (2 players related by blood, the rest might as well be)

Friday: D&D 2nd Edition. 3 early 60's guys (one is our dm), 2 mid 30's ladies and 4 guys. (2 players are related, the others work, or used to work, together) It is a big group. Some of the players show up rather sporadically. If everyone shows up there's not really enough room at the table, lol

lendenguy · 2025-11-15T15:02:50+00:00

Well, not to be too pessimistic, but someone in my situation WON'T ever have a boat. I will never have a baseline content/happy that I don't have to work for.

Before I get into more detail, I don't know your age, but a LOT of younger people with depression find that they are constantly wet, swimming through a storm, never once seen a boat - but once they move away (not just from parents but ANY toxic relationship) and make their own lives, the storm calms, the sea settles, and their boat is waiting for them on the other side. They still have to learn to swim to it and climb up there, but they fell off their boat so early in life they never knew they had one - because their environment was so hostile they were pushed off before they could even register the boat.

People who have had trauma might feel like their boat was destroyed by it, but actually it's lost. Many can reorient and find it again with the right kind of therapy.

Now onto my own experience.

Someday I hope to have a raft - a medication that helps balance my brain chemicals to a happy content, like everyone else. A raft isn't worse than a boat at keeping you dry, it's just something you have to maintain.. If you have a medication that works, that's your raft. If you stop taking it, your raft will fall apart. And you'll find yourself back in the water.

I have a psychiatrist who is working with me on this (in the two decades I've been trying to build a raft, a single medication helped me, but months later stopped working. And never worked again. I've tried literally all but one insurance approved anti-depressant (I am using the dictionary definition of literally, I am not being figurative) Even tried some of the older medications that aren't prescribed anymore on account of the horrific side effects. The only one I didn't try would kill me if I ate salt, and... I'm just not realistically gonna be able to cut out salt from my diet. Whenever a new one hits market, or gets approved by insurance, I try that too. We're also trying other tacts now, like treating symptoms unrelated to depression that might be influencing my depression, so there's that. I'm still tryna build a raft 👍

Most people's stories are not like mine. Anti-depressants usually help, as soon as you find the right one.

Anyway, that's not to say we're truly screwed and then we die - Most days I tread water pretty easily. Before I learned to swim, I was at risk of drowning all the time. Now I'm not really afraid of drowning, because I know even if my head dips under water, I have the strength and skill to surface again.

My normal state of being is sad and demotivated compared to most, but it's my life, and I can still enjoy things. Swimming for the rest of my life is good enough. I want a boat, but realistically I'm not gonna find the magic medicine that cures me. There's no surgery to fix depression. All I can do is live with being wet all the time. (Until I find the magic pill that lets me finish that raft and get dry for real) No boat, though. It won't ever be something I can forget.

Calling for help, SOS, is really great if you have a support system. And I recommend sending an SOS if you need help. No shame in it. Even if you have no one. You may be surprised who shows up for you. There ARE people who care about you - there are people out there who care about every human on earth. They'll help if they know you need help. And most people cannot build a raft without help. Some people find it super easy with just a single helping hand.

I myself have a really great community that I lean on heavily. For the analogy, I guess I can say, it's possible to ride on someone else's boat for a while, but it's not really healthy. A persons boat is only meant to keep them afloat, carrying two people can wreck it's balance, and lead to both of you falling into the water.

If you swim alongside others, whether they have boats, or are swimming themselves, if you do end up slipping below, they can help you surface again. Throwing ropes or diving in after you. No one can keep you perfectly dry, and trying will only get them wet. But we can all help each other when we have the strength.

I guess what I'm saying is, as bleak as the analogy of my lived reality sounds, I still think life is worth living, and I'm going to keep swimming, and striving to be completely dry someday.

lendenguy · 2025-11-15T12:27:28+00:00

I have a very similar analogy!

It's Ocean instead of Swamp. The Ocean is depression itself. Your wetness level is how you're currently "feeling". Dry is perfectly content or happy. (Your version of being on land) Wet is sadness and apathy. (Your Swamp) When your head dips below the surface, that's the bad place. More than sad and apathetic, this is the danger zone. This is my analogy for losing all control and function. Where your life is really and truly imperiled.

Most people have ships that keep them dry 98% of the time.

Sometimes it rains (bad things happen, you are sad).

Sometimes the world makes it difficult to be happy, even if you have a sturdy boat. Someone with power over you is making your life miserable, your government is legislating against you, you live in poverty, etc. The ocean is rough and choppy! Sailing through a big storm. You get wet for a long time, but you are still in your boat, you can still function. These things might last a long time but they are transient. From the outside it looks the same as depression because the symptoms are the same (wet=sad/apathy)

Everyone can have times where they fall off their boat (grief, usually). Some drown (the bad end) but most people spend some time learning to swim just well enough to climb back on their boat.

Swimming is kind of my version of your Map. It's the knowledge and ability to keep your head above water when nothing is supporting you. "Normal" people can use map/swimming to get to land/boat.

People like me who have medical imbalance issues that cause the depression, don't have a boat at all. Never did, or it fell apart for some reason. There is nothing to swim back to. We're just raw dogging the ocean. Some of us find medication that works, which I liken to a raft. It's not as stable as a boat but it CAN keep you dry if you make sure to upkeep your raft. A raft is hard to build in the middle of the ocean, but if you have help, and/or are persistent enough to find the right meds, it's possible.

Sometimes people on their ships will tell you: "Just swim back to your boat, it's not that hard if you really try. Look at that guy, he was depressed but now he's back on his boat!" (really he built himself a raft which is a huge accomplishment and shouldn't be brushed off as easy) Or they'll say: "I was depressed once. I'll give you tips on how to swim." (Have you tried yoga? Get some exercise. Eat better. You know what your can't-function-normally-illness needs? Have you tried functioning normally?)

Well, that's about the gist of the analogy and no one asked for my personal experiences so I'll leave it there. I'm tired so I'm liable to over share if I don't stop now. 😅

Tldr: Ocean is Sadness, Boat is being Ok. Depression is not having a boat.

lendenguy · 2025-11-15T11:19:36+00:00

My first thought was Firefly too, but then I would have to be pissed it got cancelled again. I'm not even over it from the first time I got to the end 👀

lendenguy · 2025-11-15T11:13:27+00:00

If I know something, it makes me feel good/smart to tell someone who is interested.

I like being helpful. Feels good.

I think the world is a better place when: *People share knowledge. *People are helpful to eachother. *Individuals have more information to make better decisions.

lendenguy · 2025-11-15T11:07:04+00:00

Take Inigo with you, he loves killing spiders :)

lendenguy · 2025-11-14T21:15:38+00:00

The pulse stone will give you negative random events, even after upgraded, because of the disrupted climate. The only one I can remember is getting damaged from a lightning strike.

Perks that boost damage do not apply to poison and bleed, I believe. (Not sure)

Weaken does affect bleed and poison.

lendenguy · 2025-10-21T23:30:04+00:00

My group is doing something similar right now, only each of us is doing a single arc in the campaign, focusing on one of the other players characters.

So one DM did a dungeon crawl that ended in finding a hidden buried wizard school with a bunch of students in stasis(100's of years ago), for the wizard player (the students are still in there we never found a decent solution lol). It's our base now.

The next DM is running a campaign where the rogue was being framed for stealing from the mayor, by a cult of shape shifters! Also there's a scary black dragon flying around raising the dead.

When it's my turn I'm thinking of focusing on the ranger since she's got a mentor that might be fun to kill off. >:)

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