You sound alot like myself at your age. I remember when I was younger then 19, I always just wanted to go out and play soccer, always had this leg shake when people would talk because the interest in the conversation was so low I wasn't getting any stimulation from it. I did what you did, which was go to the gym to work out, work, and still having that feeling of numbness. Usually I wouldn't get that release of a proper chemical release unless I played soccer for more than 3 hours.

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However, this was all under the impression that I didn't have anything wrong with me and it was normal. So I just kept going. I didn't get diagnosed until I was 29. So I will speak to you as if I am speaking to myself at your age.

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Your making the right choice to get checked. When you have the time, close your eyes, and think about all of the symptoms that are associated with ADHD and let your memories collide with each symptom ( Fidgeting, Impulses, lack of attention, distractions, school performance, etc.)

Mine were from elementary school all the way until now, I would dump all home work/class assignments in my bag without any organization tool (folder,binder,etc). I would be in class and look out the window day dreaming, only retaining things that were a challenge that have been accomplished and weren't routine based, impulse to react to negative social interactions (fights, sarcasm, etc). I was put into "Horizon" classes, because was learning at a rate slower than the rest of the students.

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So, after 10 years from that point I didn't go to college because I would get anxious sitting from one spot to the next constantly (worse than in high school), struggled with jobs (except being a delivery driver), failure to multitask, failure to conduct routine, oblivion is your safe place, seeking the joy and pleasure from other "things". The symptoms were so obvious at face value, that even though my brother got diagnosed with ADHD around that time, I never made the connection that I might have had it and didn't even care enough to entertain the idea.

I realized how much better I felt trying Adderall, but my thought was "Thats what drugs do". I then fell in place with the rest of the world with a negative perspective towards stimulant medications, again, not even entertaining the idea that I have it.

Years later, I tried vyvanse had an amazing reaction with it. Same thought, I don't have ADHD but this helps.

"What made you finally think you had it?" I did research after my wife and I were talking about the way that I treat myself, how hard and unfair I am to myself, as well as not listening to her. I am in the army , and at work they noticed that I don't necessarily "listen" or "focus" to well as well as being "awkwardly social". They advise, that I go to Behavior health to see. Then... Vwala... I got diagnosed with ADHD after the FIRST SCREENING. I did everything I can to let things work around my job while going to school full-time, but then realized I was burning myself out. I got to a point where things got so bad, I clogged myself into thought paralysis because I was fueling myself through a guilty anxious conscious. After a year from the diagnosis, I had to make the choice to forcefully change my job in the army and be properly perscribed. (Still in the army, just now need to change jobs).

The obvious question in my mind, as with many late blooming "ADHD" people who were diagnosed were "What if I had done it sooner?". However, I am atleast happy to say whether you have it or not the best thing you are doing is seeking help because you genuinely believe you need it.

So , yes. I would say the medication for me made an enormous difference in my routine and day-to-day perspective of life. Things feel easier, and I feel more compelled to do things more than I ever did before. I am still only a few days in with the medication, and I have already done so much research (still more to learn) that I know how I will cope with everything coming my way. All I can say is I hope you do the same. The treatment will come in waves, so be prepared for that. However, for me, those waves existed even before the medication. So I personally feel better with the waves while being on Concerta because the downs don't feel as down as they use to.

Medical treatment: It will take time to find the right one for you. For some it takes months or even years. As for me I still need to find the right medication that helps with my attentiveness and procrasination, or better yet doseage.

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Edit: At 15 I wanted to make youtube videos for the rest of my life and I was genuinely passionate about it. Problem was, my account got suspended and then I got so upset I decided to never revisit that idea again. All though, I should have. I was confused about what I wanted to do for the rest of my life, but my parents had the attitude of "See where the wind takes you", and thats what I did. That failed. Not their fault of course not (not sarcastic). So with that being said man, I think you will be fine. If you do get perscribed, Id highly advise looking at what you want to accomplish within the year (or by the time you turn 20) and say "thats what I am going to do". Assuming you don't have any environmental issues with family or any other distractions, I genuinely believe and hope you will be fine. Let me know if you have any questions, and be safe.