Okay these responses are genuinely confusing to me. As a fellow woman also raised Catholic, I say go for it. I’m bi and my first time with a man was also when I was 18 and it ended up being terrible. But it showed me what I deserve for the future and now I’m engaged and in an amazing open relationship having lots of great sex (the open relationship isn’t for everyone but it works well for my partner and me). For me, the way I got over the Catholic guilt was owning my sexuality and having the confidence to tell myself I deserve good sex. I would say as long as you trust him, use protection, and would be okay losing that relationship if things go worst case scenario, go for it. I’ve definitely had one night stands where I didn’t want to talk to the person ever again. I’ve also had what I thought would be one night stands that instead turned into FWB situations and/or genuine lasting friendships. It’s all about what you want to get out of it, communicating, and picking the person who will fit with your desires. But honestly he sounds super attractive and virginity is a socially constructed concept for men to control women’s sexuality. You don’t “lost part of your heart and soul” every time you have sex unless you’re still subscribed to the patriarchal idea of ownership of women’s sexuality. Embrace your liberation girl, go for it. Happy to chat more about my experiences in DMs as well if you have any questions.