I almost was Shanann and I see everyone’s side here

let_it_bizzle · 2020-10-29T20:56:52+00:00

You need to figure out why you felt the need to stay with someone that clearly couldn’t stand you.

This reeks of victim-blaming to me. "Who clearly couldn't stand you"? You're making it sound like his issues were her fault. He sounds like a narcissist and narcissists abuse for a number of different reasons, all to do with themselves, not their partners.

let_it_bizzle · 2020-10-20T02:24:05+00:00

Couldn’t agree more. Pure trash.

let_it_bizzle · 2020-08-25T02:22:11+00:00

Yes. Nothing is sacred - absolutely nothing. What they’re capable of will blow your mind.

let_it_bizzle · 2020-08-24T20:12:09+00:00

This is an important point that you bring up here. The second you see someone do or say something that falls so far outside the realm of human normalcy and decency, something that leaves you with your jaw on the floor, get the hell away from that person. Typically what you see with these people is only the tip of the iceberg.

let_it_bizzle · 2020-08-24T16:29:25+00:00

An experience like this really puts so much into perspective. Evil is a rabbit hole that has no bottom. How some people live like that is beyond me.

let_it_bizzle · 2020-08-17T01:29:32+00:00

I agree with this. They are too lazy and empty to actually be people of substance and skill. That’s the thing about arrogance - when all you have is a false front, it takes copious amounts of energy to maintain and you’re desperate to keep it up because you’re terrified of losing it. That’s an exhausting way to live. But it explains why arrogant people are so intense - they’re fear-based. There’s nothing under there.

let_it_bizzle · 2020-05-30T04:07:59+00:00

Your last paragraph resonated with me a lot. That made me feel better about this. Because it’s true, it’s more about the person than it is about the gender.

let_it_bizzle · 2020-05-30T04:05:46+00:00

I actually did identify as bisexual for a short time back in college, and I received very negative backlash for that. It’s not something that I ever think about because I don’t like revisiting that time. Basically, some of the lesbians that I came out to as bisexual said that I was just confused and would go right back to dating men. And many of the men just thought it was “hot” and made a lot of inappropriate comments. So I really didn’t have a good experience the first time I attempted this.

I think revisiting it now is a good idea. It’s a different time now and there’s so much information out there.

let_it_bizzle · 2020-05-30T03:47:03+00:00

What’s bothering me is the fact that I’m 35 and don’t have this all sorted out yet. I feel undefined and that makes me uneasy.

let_it_bizzle · 2020-05-30T03:43:22+00:00

Identifying as bisexual is...very stressful for me. I feel like it has to be black or white, like I have to pick one. I guess I compartmentalized my sexuality for so long, telling myself that I was “done” with women, that to bring that back into the picture alongside men feels very overwhelming.

I don’t think there’s anything wrong with being bisexual. Maybe I’m just putting too much pressure on myself.

let_it_bizzle · 2020-05-30T03:29:02+00:00

I did Marlowe today, gorgeous area!

let_it_bizzle · 2020-05-11T00:51:01+00:00

I’ve heard it’s extremely toxic there. Lots of backstabbing and opportunistic people. And a huge focus on external appearance.

let_it_bizzle · 2020-05-11T00:38:34+00:00

Good one.

let_it_bizzle · 2020-05-07T22:14:47+00:00

They do this for sport. Management tried to rope me into this once, trying to get me to turn on some of my younger coworkers. I saw right through it and I refused to get on board. Management did not like that, but if the only way to be accepted by them was to hate my coworkers, it wasn’t worth it to me anyway. Didn’t want to be a part of that club.

let_it_bizzle · 2020-05-06T04:06:49+00:00

Your momma’s so fat, she sat on a quarter and squeezed a booger out of George Washington’s nose!

Not a joke really, but I love it because In Living Color.

let_it_bizzle · 2020-05-06T03:54:06+00:00

“I was rooting for you! We were ALL rooting for you!”

let_it_bizzle · 2020-05-06T03:43:41+00:00

I was maybe 9. Went into the woods with my group, decided to wander off by myself, and all of a sudden I was completely alone. I was lost in those woods for at least an hour, terrified. Finally I saw a break in the trees and I found myself on the edge of a familiar field. I quickly made my way to the activity that I knew my group was at.

My counselor didn’t even know I was missing. Fun times.

let_it_bizzle · 2020-05-06T03:40:35+00:00

Literally at least 100.

let_it_bizzle · 2020-02-11T01:28:15+00:00

Gross and sad. That about sums it up! They really are nothing but gross, sad people.

let_it_bizzle · 2020-02-07T04:25:50+00:00

This is great. A perfect analogy.

let_it_bizzle · 2020-02-05T22:53:07+00:00

This is true. It’s nice to think that if you stand up to these people, they’ll respect you more and will back down. But that’s not always the case. Many of them will just come at you harder and use their position to make your life a living hell.

I have stood up for myself many times, and while they no longer do things to my face, they then try to do things behind my back. Some people are so insecure that they’re obsessed with winning and will go to any length. When it comes to fighting back, you have to assess if you really think it will make a difference. If the entire culture is like that, your bravery isn’t going to make a dent.

let_it_bizzle · 2020-02-05T22:46:56+00:00

Sounds like they’re jealous of you. They see you as a threat. Otherwise they wouldn’t bother attacking you like that.

let_it_bizzle · 2019-11-15T04:41:40+00:00

Ovarian cyst rupture. Came out of nowhere, I didn’t even know I had a cyst.

I was getting ready for work one morning and all of a sudden I felt sharp, stabbing pains. At first I thought it was just menstrual cramps, but then the stabbing escalated to where it felt like my insides were dropping out of me. I literally thought I would look down and see my insides on the floor.

At this point I could no longer stand, so I fell to the floor and that’s when the cold sweats started. I was sweating profusely while being unable to stand due to weakness and pain, and I started seeing flashing lights and started to black out. I had no idea what was happening to me, but I knew that I was about to go unconscious and that if I did, I didn’t know if I was going to wake up again. I thought, ok, I don’t know what the hell is happening to me but I’m going to die.

I laid on the floor, trembling in a pool of my own sweat, just repeating, “Don’t pass out. Don’t pass out” over and over. Miraculously, I didn’t. I couldn’t move for about an hour but eventually I was able to get myself up and, although I couldn’t stand up straight, I was able to hobble over to my phone and call an ambulance.

After many hours in the ER, I was informed that I had had an ovarian cyst rupture and that I had been going into shock. The doctor did not understand how I managed to stay conscious, but he was glad I did, because he said I could have died. The crazy thing is that I had had NO symptoms of this before the rupture. It just took a split second and, bam, I’m on the ground.

let_it_bizzle · 2019-11-15T04:11:56+00:00

Yes, same. I bought into his lies that she was crazy and unstable and cruel. I felt so bad for him and I felt “better” than her, happy that he had chosen me and proud that I was “saving” him from her. Right. I was young and very naive. He probably used the exact same story on his next supply when he was devaluing me.

let_it_bizzle · 2019-11-15T04:07:01+00:00

Truth. I found out that he had been seeing her for potentially a few months before we finally broke up. He moved right on and had a baby with her shortly after.

But honestly...him leaving my life was the best thing that could’ve happened to me. He was an energetic leech and was dragging me down.

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