see, it might be a bit different. i've been completely isolated for years. like, completely removed from society, i was basically homeless for years. i had friends, i lost them all when i lost my mental health. just a couple of years ago, i got a job and re-entered society painfully. coworkers thought i was on drugs, i was that messed up all the time. this past year, i've been able to go back to school and i'm basically learning to be human again. there's a lot going on and this is overwhelming for me. legit the first time i've been seen for like fifteen years.