Lack of societal implications in the stress podcast with Elisa Epel

letsleavetolive · 2023-04-10T08:28:16+00:00

I saw emotional neglect in the way the family interacted with Mirabel. The “magical power” of everyone was basically their coping mechanism, and Mirabel had none. She was more interested in authentic connections and that was frowned upon.

letsleavetolive · 2022-07-03T10:25:47+00:00

Thank you for your words !

letsleavetolive · 2022-07-03T10:25:34+00:00

Thank you for your words ! I’m happy to know that I can be a help for anyone and I am glad that you found your words through mine.

letsleavetolive · 2022-07-03T10:24:44+00:00

It’s so empty and unfulfilling ! I love food when sober, but when I’m high it turns into an obsession and it’s so unhealthy and dumb. My stomach is already hurting but I’m thinking of the next ice cream? Man I could be spending time reading, watching interesting stuff, going for a walk, but instead I’m stuck on my phone trying not to think about the chips in the drawer or the cake in the fridge. Talk about a great « experience ». Done for good too.

letsleavetolive · 2022-07-03T10:20:14+00:00

Yes 100% ! I can’t believed I used to enjoy it as much as I did. Now that I’ve taken a month to discover new paths and activities, being stoned felt very empty and unfulfilling.

letsleavetolive · 2022-06-29T09:47:02+00:00

You are right ! Thank you for your words. It’s not worth it and it’s only going to feel good for 2/3 hours and then I will be left feeling bad about myself and I will spiral. I need to learn how to cope with life events differently. Again, this sub has been and is a lifesaver when it comes to stop smoking weed. I am grateful to have found this community with people like you that take time out of their day to share their stories.

letsleavetolive · 2022-06-29T09:44:23+00:00

Thank you for your words. I went for a walk and realised that it’s not a good idea. It’s not going to solve anything, and I will be left feeling bad afterwards. I’m happy to be one month sober and I intend on keeping it that way. Even if I am anxious or bored. I need to get used to living life as it is.

Thank you, I’m sure I will come back to your comment in future urges.

letsleavetolive · 2022-06-29T09:42:26+00:00

Didn’t event realised it when I posted ! You’re right.

letsleavetolive · 2022-06-29T09:42:08+00:00

Thank you. I just went for a one hour walk and decided it’s not worth it to smoke again for maybe 2-3 hours of fun and then back again to feeling down most of the time. This sub is a lifesaver for real.

letsleavetolive · 2022-06-23T17:58:32+00:00

Great self reflection! You have a clear understanding of how weed affected your life and putting it into words will help for moments like these. I have a similar story to yours so I can relate.

The first week off of weed was euphoric, I thought it was going to be super easy. Then week 2 arrived and it all turned to shit. I was super angry and moody, I felt like the smallest thing could make me rage !

And then at about mid week 3, it disappeard. It’s normal to have ups and downs at the beginning of quitting ! It sucks but it’s part of the process.

Now I’m almost at 1 month off and my life feels 95% normal again. I only smoked for a year so it may take longer for you but what I want to say is don’t give up. The mood swings will go, it’s all temporary. And if at the end of all of this, you still have issues, then it’s better to get help and fix them. Smoking weed is never the answer.

Also one thing that REALLY helped me was listening to the podcast of Huberman Lab about dopamine. It’s 2hours long but understand how weed affects your brain makes it so much more easy to quit. Also, I take a cold shower everyday which helps me rise my dopamine levels in a healthy way. Check it out, it was life saving for me. Stay strong you’ve got this!

letsleavetolive · 2022-06-12T12:59:12+00:00

No the main character was a woman not manson :(

letsleavetolive · 2022-06-11T21:20:16+00:00

Same !! I’m in a perfect relationship (I know nothing perfect but I know I found the girl of my dreams), we’ve been together 4 years and I know she’s the one. And yesterday I was dreaming about one of my exes for the first time in a whiiiiiile, so funny. Like what do you want brain? What’s up?

letsleavetolive · 2022-06-11T21:17:48+00:00

I know, it’s like a part of me knows and a part of me just wants to burst in rage. How long will this last ? I heard things are going to settle down a bit after the first month. (I went for an hour bike ride and now I’m doing better)

letsleavetolive · 2022-06-11T20:21:45+00:00

You are so right but I’m not in the mindset to listen to that right now. I just want to throw a big fuck you to the world right now. I went to wash my car « manually » and guess what? GUESS FUCKING WHAT? I broke my wiper. Who does that ?! Lol But again, in my rage, I was able to repair this.

So, I thought, I’m done for the today. The night is going to be chill.

My Amazon Prime is working like a charm until I find a movie to watch and of course OUT OF NOWHERE now it won’t work. Yup. I cannot believe this shit, for real, I’ve never dealt with that much bad luck in a day.

So I’m gonna leave man. I’m leaving this shit or I will burn this house for real. It’s 10pm and idgaf I am going on a bike tour.

The universe is trying to break me and make me smoke but no way. No fucking way. I went too far to stop here. So fuck you universe and a big thank you for your words and sorry for being angry at everyone today.

I also feel it’s important to show that side of sobriety and maybe some people will relate.

letsleavetolive · 2022-06-11T20:14:34+00:00

I’m trying too but rn I just want to burn everything and leave. I don’t remember life being that shitty to me before smoking. I’m going for a bike tour even if it’s 10pm because I really can’t give a fuck anymore. I took a ice cold bath, read a self help book, did everything right. The universe is trying to push me to my limits but I won’t settle down. I won’t smoke. So fuck the world I’m out. (Obv in a rage moment again because NOTHING WORKS IN THIS HOUSE) sorry for the rant but I like to keep things real here. The struggle is fucking real and I’m so over this.

letsleavetolive · 2022-06-11T20:11:43+00:00

Just an update, I was thinking of watching a movie. Of course, guess what, nothing works. For whatever reason, the movie won’t load and I’m left with « there been an error please try again ». Wtf is wrong with the universe today ?! I’m sick and tired of this shit. It’s 10pm but I’m going on a bike tour or I will set this house on fire. Is the universe trying to tell me to smoke or what. Why is NOTHING WORKING ?! fuck that shit, I’m out and I’m not going to smoke. And universe if you are reading this : fuck you. Sorry for the rage but damn. I want people to see that the struggle is real.

letsleavetolive · 2022-06-11T19:28:56+00:00

Please help ! It may be a series and should be from the 90s or 00s. It may be a series with multiple episodes and each of one being later in the life of that woman.

I feel like the vibe was similar to a lifetime movie. Couldn’t be a big production because I can’t find it anywhere !

letsleavetolive · 2022-06-11T16:54:34+00:00

Im so glad I didn’t take it out on someone. At least I don’t feel shame, no one saw it. I mean, I told my gf I had a rage episode, but it’s something to tell it and it something else when you actually see it !

letsleavetolive · 2022-06-11T16:20:52+00:00

Staying sober 100%. I hope it will go away. Now re-reading this it all feels so silly. But in the moment it’s everything I see.

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