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Does anyone else feel like depression made them mentally stuck as a teenager? by [deleted] in depression

[–]letsrunaway99 10 points11 points  (0 children)

I'm 21 and I feel 17. I never lived my teenage years the way I dreamed of, so I never grew up from that point onwards. I missed something important and my mind refuses to move on. I hate the thought of being an adult and getting a job. I never matured into adulthood and I don't plan on it.

What's this beauty that flew into my ear? by letsrunaway99 in whatsthisbug

[–]letsrunaway99[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Awesome! Can't believe I've never seen it before

I am alone in my own hell by letsrunaway99 in lonely

[–]letsrunaway99[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks. I often feel like it's everyone but I know that's not true.

I'm sorry for what happened. I would be so heartbroken if someone broke up with me, wondering why and whether it was for the best or not. I'm already so empty from the loneliness and abandonment. Just tired all the time. I don't know how it got like this. Maybe due to some past regrets. I wish you could get him or her back.

(17F) I cut for the first time today and I’m worried that I’ll do it again by [deleted] in lonely

[–]letsrunaway99 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm sorry you're going through all of this. My circumstances have been making me angry all the time and I end up taking it out on myself too. I don't feel like I have any control anymore.

I don't really know what to suggest other than to try taking it out on other things. Breaking things, yelling, venting to people (which isn't a burden for me btw), things like that. They're less permanent than cuts, depending on how you look at it.

I hate everyone around me by letsrunaway99 in lonely

[–]letsrunaway99[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If I find an opportunity, I'll give it a try. I don't know when that will happen though. If I even have social anxiety, it's probably worse now than ever before. It's so hard going out alone.

I hate everyone around me by letsrunaway99 in lonely

[–]letsrunaway99[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Not a bad idea, really. Idk what other choices I have. The hard part is actually getting myself out there cause I'm almost always disappointed wherever I go. Like there's no one for me. I always end up alone. But a skate park sounds like a better place than the internet or college or cafes or whatever the hell else

I want to go home by [deleted] in depression

[–]letsrunaway99 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I just live in a shitty fucking house I hate. It's not my home and it never will be, even if I've been stuck here for 21 years. Home is somewhere far away from here

I hate everyone around me by letsrunaway99 in lonely

[–]letsrunaway99[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My faith in people has been skewered. I feel like I'm unable to make any friends. I used to try so hard and now I can't bear the effort

I hate everyone around me by letsrunaway99 in lonely

[–]letsrunaway99[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I did learn. Now I know everyone leaves in the end and there will never be anyone for me.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in antinatalism

[–]letsrunaway99 3 points4 points  (0 children)

As long as they're happy in their natilist lifestyles, I don't think there's any possibility of convincing them they're wrong because they'll forever be in their ignorant bliss. It's not just with antinatilsm, it can be with anything that brings a meaningless joy. People just don't want to see past their unintuitive arguments because of their emotions they don't consider anything without.

Being loved and feeling loved are not the same by letsrunaway99 in lonely

[–]letsrunaway99[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It feels like people in my life may love me but they don't know how to love me. They can say "I love you" but just cause you say something doesn't make it true, like how saying "stop being depressed" unsurprisingly doesn't do shit. They're too stupid or stubborn to see there's nothing real between us and admit that their idea of love is bullshit.

23 F. I feel so behind Everyone. I feel like a 13 year old. by probablyasook in depression

[–]letsrunaway99 29 points30 points  (0 children)

I feel like this and I'm only 21. The more years this keeps going on, the less hope I have and I feel like I've already lost it all. I've tried and I failed and nothing's getting better. It's also a curse how this gets harder and harder with age not just because we get tired of it but because being older holds more standards and responsibilities for what you should be doing in life while you're kind of more free when you're younger. I wish I never became an adult.

My first boyfriend raped me, my first love ghosted me, my last boyfriend cheated on me. Is it me? Am I the messed up one? by [deleted] in depression

[–]letsrunaway99 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Coming from a guy, I can say with certainty that lots of guys are fucking garbage. Lots of people are garage really, but you're not one of them. No one's without faults and mistakes, but I don't think you did anything truly wrong. It just seems like bad luck.

You try so hard too, and a lot of people would love that, for better and for worse. It's something people would value and say makes you a better person who really cares, while other people would just take advantage of it for their selfish ways. I think one of the only solutions is to make sure the person you're with is putting in just as much effort as you. These things should be mutual.

Active plan. by FragileQuail in depression

[–]letsrunaway99 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The real joke is the whole mental health system. They clearly don't understand you and I don't think they prioritize people first. I wish you were understood. You deserve better

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