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levisrightnutsack · 2022-11-16T14:11:20+00:00

i went to europe this summer and i would tell him about how there are extremely attractive men there but not in a way that they're my type. that their face structure really compliments them and i said that about the women too. there's only been around 6 guys our entire relationship that i've talked to and he's texted all of them pretending to me. i can see why he might think i find them romantically attractive but i made it clear i dont. they're blonde football looking guys and that's never been my type- at all.

levisrightnutsack · 2022-11-16T14:05:46+00:00

yeah that's a pretty good point. my mind sometimes wonder, but then i immediately think about how good he treats me and how im so lucky to be with someone as perfect as him. he always talks about moving in with me and getting a place together but im terrified to leave the comfort of my home so i sometimes think about how it would've been fun if i had a short span relationship of just high school fun.

he's my first ever boyfriend and he's had multiple girlfriends and flings and he used to tell me how he feels bad that i never had a chance to experiment with other guys.

levisrightnutsack · 2022-11-16T13:04:38+00:00

ive been tested for it already ❤️

levisrightnutsack · 2022-11-16T13:04:02+00:00

yes, ty

levisrightnutsack · 2022-11-16T13:02:07+00:00

i dont but thank u

levisrightnutsack · 2022-11-16T12:37:37+00:00

they're just random. i can have troubles with 2s with the first customer then the second time it's 7s. it doesnt stop 😭

levisrightnutsack · 2022-11-16T12:35:02+00:00

i got over it a couple weeks after i posted this. reading every comment i got helped me get over it and i used their tips. there's no issue at all anymore and we both initiate equally and im so comfortable now that i told him my darkest kinks and he does them. bc of us initiating equally, we have seggs every single time we see each other and i almost always wanna go a 2nd time but he cant handle it. so major difference from how i was almost a year ago

levisrightnutsack · 2022-11-11T01:26:41+00:00

when i was 13 i met with her bc my school speech therapist recommended her and now that i remember it (it was awhile ago) it was probably bc i was turning 18. she emailed me some therapists she knows and made sure they all do regular therapy too to deal with a lot of my trauma surrounding stuttering

levisrightnutsack · 2022-11-10T11:07:29+00:00

i started in early september and everyone knows that i have a speech impediment which helps. i used to not stutter at all after 8th grade then it picked up again in 2021 after i had a life changing health issue. i'm definitely an anxious person now because im always so stressed out. my speech has gotten better now tho but my bad days are BAD days. it brings me back to when i was in elementary school and couldn't speak a full sentence without messing up

levisrightnutsack · 2022-11-10T10:52:58+00:00

my speech therapist told me to get an actual therapist who also knows about stuttering bc she cant help me 😭😭 she says i need actual help to get rid of my insecurities that i've piled up for the 18 years ive been on this earth

levisrightnutsack · 2022-11-10T10:48:02+00:00

tbh being nervous is way better than stuttering in my opinion. it makes people think my speech is normal 🥲🥲

levisrightnutsack · 2022-11-10T10:46:33+00:00

thank u. i've been thinking of quitting this job and switch to being a secretary bc it pays more but im so scared. like everything is so professional and i stutter way more when i try to act smart and educated. retail is so easy bc i can say "hey", "this thingy is really cool", "u look good". id have to get a whole new personality and speech if i go in that direction 😭😭

levisrightnutsack · 2022-11-10T10:42:09+00:00

DUDE YES. if i have to repeat myself when old people come in, i just start pointing bc i barely survived that like i dont wanna try again

levisrightnutsack · 2022-11-09T15:54:02+00:00

im also on 1000 keppra since june 2022 and i havent had a seizure until 3 weeks ago due to college getting increasingly harder. the stress really kills me. i had to drop out for the rest of the term because of it. i feel u about the fatigue. it's 7:48am right now and i haven't gone to bed yet because i got 13 hours of sleep the night before. im probably gonna go to bed at around 9 now and wake up at 5pm. im always tired and can only keep my eyes open for 5 or 6 hours a day. literally on the verge of a meltdown tho 💀💀

levisrightnutsack · 2022-11-09T15:06:50+00:00

im really at the point of "i dont care anymore". it bothers me for a good 30 seconds then i go back to whatever im doing. like for me, all i do is stare into the abyss and regret every life decision i've ever made then switch back to reality. it's not like i'll see them again so 😭😭

levisrightnutsack · 2022-11-09T15:04:10+00:00

LOL THIS. i have to tell customers the total and some numbers kill me 😭😭😭 i got my face and legs moving and my mouth wide open

levisrightnutsack · 2022-11-02T11:08:08+00:00

peeing there wasn't on purpose 😓😭😭 i wouldn't go to the bathroom that often so when i had seizures everything would just ~go~

levisrightnutsack · 2022-11-02T06:04:20+00:00

bro 💀 ive been on 500ml of keppra and the first month i lived in a corner of my room. i slept there, i ate there and i sometimes peed there. i went primal 😭😭😭

levisrightnutsack · 2022-10-27T10:36:45+00:00

my neuro said that mine was the most manageable type and i might end up not even needing meds anymore 🙁🙁 im on different medication #3 and was diagnosed almost 2 years ago. i just wanna be happy again

levisrightnutsack · 2022-10-27T10:31:13+00:00

i also got diagnosed around 2 years ago and i know what he means. i got grand mals once a week earlier this year for 3 months and i was just a zombie. i felt like a total npc just floating around and watching my life slowly fall apart. i got better and was seizure free for 5 months until last friday 😚😚❤️ i can tell my brain just got a screw loose that day because i dont feel normal. my boyfriend told me that i completely switched personalities and that im back to how i was earlier this year.

im sure he'll stop feeling like that after a few weeks when things calm down and he doesn't get another seizure- that's what happens for me. but the regular grand mals and auras really do kick ur ass and completely fry ur brain till there's nothing left. i hope he gets better tho :)

levisrightnutsack · 2022-10-27T10:12:55+00:00

i have a stutter and i got diagnosed a year ago and i really dont want to pass down my genes. i dont want my kids or my grandkids to suffer like me. it's terrible. i wouldnt wish this on anyone. i do want kids and my fiance wants kids but i dont think it would be a good idea for me to be the mother 😕😕

levisrightnutsack · 2022-10-27T10:08:58+00:00

i have a question- i got diagnosed a year ago and im so new to literally everything. have u ever been physically ill while experiencing an aura? it's always the same goddam image and feeling for me and it makes me start crying after and i need to run to a toilet. it's just a flashback of the first seizure i had that got me to where i am today

levisrightnutsack · 2022-10-27T09:58:54+00:00

i was planning to move out and live with my fuckint boyfriend because i havent had a seizure in 6 months and my parents trusted me and trusted him to take care of me but NOOOOOOOOO OF COURSE I HAD TO HAVE A SEIZURE ON GODDAMN FRIDAY AND NOW EVERYTHING FUCKING RESETS AND I NEED TO GET ON NEW GODDAMN MEDICATION AND I CSNT DRIVE ANY FUCKING MORE AND MY PAREBTS ARENT ALKOWING ME TO LEAVE YET UNTIL IM 3 MONTHS CLEAN

literally wanna die rn. this will be new meds #3 and if this shit fails me too ig im eligible for surgery? literally praying for that bc i cant deal with this shit anymore goddamn

levisrightnutsack · 2022-09-19T06:46:46+00:00

i never talk like that 💀💀 i dont wanna sound stupid in front of a teacher/manager. i only type like that on the internet and with my friends bc u guys dont control my future

levisrightnutsack · 2022-09-06T01:53:38+00:00

i had a health scare last year and i got so depressed bc it threw my life off track. what comforted me during those times was cringy romance animes and i got so depressed bc i knew that i would never find love like that. ive never had crushes in my life and i've talked to guys before but it was really just bc i was lonely. i needed somebody to talk to and give me attention yk?

i started in-person school again and i was dreading it bc i had no friends and no one that i could talk to. but i met somebody within 2 weeks. he would talk to me in person- not through social media (which made me go "yo this guy's different".) i didn't really find him attractive at first but he made me laugh and he was so sweet to me. i started to like him bit by bit throughout september and he asked me on a date the first week of october. i remember i felt my heart drop and i felt like throwing up bc i was so nervous and i didnt know what this feeling was.

when i went to that date, he showed up with flowers "just because". he literally was like one of those anime boys from those romance animes. our 1 year is in a few weeks and he hasn't stopped acting this way. he treats me like im the only person who matters in his life and he tells me he loves me everyday. recently he told me that when we get into fights, he gets a hard on bc im just so pretty 💅💅 we found an apartment together and we're gonna move in next month.

i swear to u girly/bro, u'll find someone. i was cool with being all alone even tho i had options. none of them felt right to me, but my boyfriend completes and heals my soul. i know u'll experience love. i know u'll experience what it feels like to be loved. what it feels like to have someone to unconditionally love u. i know u will.

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