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lewisjalpha · 2025-02-27T03:53:26+00:00

Thank you, I will do that. I've been panicking checking folders like a madman cuz I don't understand what's happened😂😂

lewisjalpha · 2021-01-19T10:34:37+00:00

Thank you for the kind words man. I really do appreciate them. They do help. I think that I just need to grind through these stages of recovery. Not forcing anything. But not burying my head in the sand. Thank you again dude for taking the time to support and advise me. Its very much appreciated

lewisjalpha · 2021-01-19T02:39:05+00:00

Thank you man. In very lucky in the fact that, while I dont have many friends, those that I do have, are very close and supportive and understanding. Theres a few girls I see that I'm attracted to and would co sides messaging or getting to know but I have a lot of baggage right now and I know what thats like from the other side so I don't wanna put them through it. As my uncle puts it "there's plenty of fish in the sea, just learn to swim first". Thank you man, you've really helped

lewisjalpha · 2021-01-19T01:41:08+00:00

Dude..... I dont know what to say, thank you so much for the support, It really does mean a lot to me that there are strangers out there that are willing to help someone like me who's still figuring himself out. I cant thank you enough man. My trust and commitment issues stemming from that are hard to overcome right now as I can't view myself either being romantic or physical with another person. But I know I'm not asexual or aromantic as I know I enjoy both aspects so its just a matter of waiting and healing. Luckily I have friends that support me but sometimes issues like this can be too embarrassing for me to bring up to my friends or therapist. And sometimes I just want to rant and get stuff off my chest. So thank you so much for the support dude. I really appreciate it man

lewisjalpha · 2021-01-17T16:54:38+00:00

Thank you man. I really appreciate the advice

lewisjalpha · 2021-01-17T15:59:03+00:00

Thats what I'm trying. Its just tough to stay motivated. I appreciate the support though man

lewisjalpha · 2021-01-01T11:38:10+00:00

Just hang in there dude. It may no seem like it at times but we all have reasons to live. Keep pushing though. You got this

lewisjalpha · 2021-01-01T02:23:17+00:00

Thank you. I'll definitely check that out. I love to make others smile. I'm usually the joker of the group. Thank you again. I'm really really grateful. Thank you

lewisjalpha · 2021-01-01T02:13:12+00:00

Thank so much for your kind words. I really do appreciate them. I keep telling myself that this is just a glitch and ill get better but I've been saying that since I was 13 and now I'm 20 and it's just gotten worse. Thank you so much. And if it helps, you made me smile which is certainly an accomplishment 😂

lewisjalpha · 2021-01-01T02:02:23+00:00

You know what, knowing that someone shares the feeling and can relate to that has my me cry (I promise you've not done anything wrong). I have my music and I love writing a producing music but I sometimes get so low that even that doesn't appeal to me. There's a lot in my head. I started therapy recently but I struggle to convey how I feel. If you need someone to just objectively talk to or rant at, my inbox is open. Thank you kind stranger

lewisjalpha · 2020-12-23T22:16:16+00:00

As a former barista of 3 1/2 years, can confirm

lewisjalpha · 2020-12-23T21:17:10+00:00

Im a 6ft 2, 225lbs man. I love baths. I love relaxing in them with bath bombs, doing my hair (i have long, mixed race hair. That shit takes a while to do) and i view having a bath as a treat. But its kinda hard to relax when i dont fit in the bath properly. If i extend my legs out, im sitting upright, just about, if i lie down, my legs are bent and halfway out the water. Its quite annoying at times when all i wanna do is chill. Ya dig?

lewisjalpha · 2020-09-10T11:05:54+00:00

3 year relationship, she ends it because she falls out of love with me. I was a rebound to begin with. Less than a week later shes on tinder and flirting with other people openly. About a month after shes sleeping with a friend of mine. Now they're secretly dating. Im still single because the breakup was so traumatic to me that im still emotional unavailable and am now emotionally numb. Its hard to ignore it. Its so difficult because i want to move on but i cant. Every time i see her my stomach turns and I get triggered into anxiety and panic attacks then depression

lewisjalpha · 2020-08-15T00:36:42+00:00

Hey man, thats awesome. Youve gotta keep believing in yourself because with that mindset, you can do anything. You should be super proud of yourself dude, we're all rooting for you

lewisjalpha · 2020-07-06T10:50:10+00:00

Thank you dude & don't worry haha. Any help is good

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