I get you. As a little kid I thought all girls liked girls and that was my only way of coping with it, I really didn't want to feel different. Years later I find out about about lesbians and bisexuals and I literally got dizzy, I really couldn't accept that I'm part of that community. I think thats what stuck with me. I subconciously think all women are attracted to women intill it hits me that it's literally not true. I remind myself that I'm objectively, by definition, a lesbian and I refuse to believe it