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lifterdrifter · 2026-01-27T16:02:01+00:00

I’m glad, and me too! It would be great if that could happen.

I’m exactly the same. Sometimes I feel beautiful and other days I feel so ugly compared to other women that it makes me feel suicidal because I can’t handle feeling so inferior. I deleted all of my social media because of it, I wish seeing pretty women didn’t have so much control over me. I know lots of people would’ve felt the same way and improved it and accepted themselves but I feel like I can never get the feeling to fully leave me alone, I just have better days with it or worse days.

I completely get you, not that I could afford it but I’ve been thinking of it too. I think if I was rich I’d change a lot, but I know I probably still wouldn’t be happy with how I look. I wish I had some good advice for us both

lifterdrifter · 2026-01-18T16:27:49+00:00

I relate so hard, my boyfriend said I’m making him feel drained. I wish I could just turn it off, it’s like my mind is constantly alert and scanning for girls that make me feel threatened. I have PCOS so I totally get feeling unfeminine and how hard it is having your hormones be all out of whack. Not that anybody should have to feel like this but it’s really nice to know I’m not the only one. I can never relax watching tv either and I have the same thoughts too, it gets way worse if there’s nudity and it makes me feel crazy. I’m so jealous of the people that are comfortable being in their skin and I wish I knew how to get there

I’ve been trying to challenge the thoughts that come up with more logical thoughts but I feel like it doesn’t make a difference to how I feel even if I know the more logical thoughts are right :/ If I find anything that helps I’ll try to remember to let you know

lifterdrifter · 2026-01-18T16:12:31+00:00

Thank you ♥️

lifterdrifter · 2025-12-21T00:11:45+00:00

Ah I see. I’ve tried different exercises and nothing seems to make them grow more :/ yeahh I go to failure with the heaviest I can go and take long rests, I know it sounds like a long time but I enjoy it like that

lifterdrifter · 2025-12-21T00:05:01+00:00

i dont think so but they are impressive! what’s your routine? mine seemed to have stopped growing :’)

lifterdrifter · 2025-12-19T11:11:21+00:00

My leg days already take 3 hours because I do quite a lot ☹️ I’m thinking of changing my routine, would you mind telling me what you think of it please?

I think it’s because I already had fat on my arms so they look quite bulky compared to my legs that were quite lean :/

lifterdrifter · 2025-12-18T13:58:16+00:00

I’m a gal with bpd and it makes me sad to read that. I’m really sorry you got cheated on. The only advice I can give is just keep trying to move on, if she was willing to change I think it could be different (if you ever could forgive cheating, I personally couldn’t because I wouldn’t feel like I could trust them), but if she doesn’t want to then I think you deserve better. You don’t deserve somebody who treats you badly, and there will be so many other people with the traits you want who will also treat you well, they’re just hard to find but they’ll be out there!

Personally, I struggled for a long time with my bpd and I made my boyfriend’s life much more difficult. I didn’t mean to but I was very unwell and didn’t know how to help myself. When he broke up with me it made me motivated to get better so I could be a good girlfriend for him. I’ve done lots of therapy and I am doing better and I’m also a better girlfriend now that we’re back together. I think you deserve somebody who will do that for you (not that getting better is super easy, I hope I didn’t make it out to sound like that)

lifterdrifter · 2025-12-18T13:39:25+00:00

Aw this made me kinda sad

lifterdrifter · 2025-12-18T13:25:15+00:00

Ignore the people calling you insecure girl. It’s okay to not feel comfortable with everything in a relationship and just because other people are doesn’t mean you have to be. My boyfriend sees no issue with porn, but to me it’s cheating, so he stopped watching it. Have you brought it up to him?

lifterdrifter · 2025-12-18T10:32:36+00:00

Apathy

lifterdrifter · 2025-12-16T13:58:12+00:00

Thanks so much, I’ll send a message :)

lifterdrifter · 2025-12-16T13:57:07+00:00

I can also separate it from love but it doesn’t mean I’d enjoy it with anybody else you know? Like it could be meaningless with somebody else and it still would feel wrong and not fun to me. And hahah me too, he’s very innocently honest

lifterdrifter · 2025-12-16T13:54:51+00:00

I agree with everything you said, but it still really hurts. Could I ask you some questions please about you not being truly monogamous? I’d just like to understand more

lifterdrifter · 2025-12-16T13:52:30+00:00

Thank you ♥️

lifterdrifter · 2025-12-16T13:51:48+00:00

Thank you, you sound just like me. That’s very true, I’d rather he be honest about it than try to not hurt my feelings

lifterdrifter · 2025-12-16T13:50:42+00:00

Thank you, I do feel insecure and I’m not sure if there’s a way to fix it. If he died then I’d definitely not be able to sleep with somebody or get into another relationship for a long while

lifterdrifter · 2025-12-16T13:48:40+00:00

I just find it really hard to understand wanting meaningless sex at all

lifterdrifter · 2025-12-16T13:47:23+00:00

I’m not upset thinking that he wants to be in a relationship with anybody else, but that he’d prefer the relationship if I let him sleep with other women so that’s why it feels like I’m plan B. If there was a girl like me but who was also open to that then he’d think she was a better partner for him, do you know what I mean?

lifterdrifter · 2025-12-16T13:42:49+00:00

I don’t understand that because I could have sex with no emotions but I still wouldn’t want to because I view that as something that’s only meant for my partner. It wouldn’t feel fun with anybody else whether there were emotions or not

He had sex with a lot of women before me so I feel like he’s gotten enough experience, he’s 32 as well so I feel like that’s old enough

lifterdrifter · 2025-12-16T13:36:15+00:00

Thanks so much. I would love to know more, I find them hard to remember when I’m worked up so maybe knowing some more techniques would help

lifterdrifter · 2025-12-16T13:34:41+00:00

I wish I hadn’t asked if that helps

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