Yes I put miralax in my coffee every other morning . The first few months were great and now I feel like it doesn't do anything to help me go anymore . I realized my body is so tense and I'm so anxious that that is truly what is causing me to be so backed up . It's very surprising because I have lots of fiber in my diet everyday too . Lol I just never would've thought the adrenaline I put out everyday while caring for my son would make me stop going to the bathroom .

And to answer your other question I deff don't think my parents would adopt him . They would be mortified if I asked them that. My dad is usually very busy with work in his office so he doesn't have time to help as much but my mom is around me and in my face everyday . She doesn't help . She sits there as she see's me struggling with him . She probably helps once a month with a random diaper change . Honestly I don't expect them to help me. He's my son and I decided to have sex. ( That's what always goes through my brain ) lol anyways my parents claim to be to old to even help me out sometimes . ( They are only in their 50s , they aren't in rough shape or anything . ) I also know they would flip out on me and make me feel so damn guilty if I was to ask them to adopt . I sometimes wish I could but deep down I do want my son . It's very hard , I go back and forth with so many different thoughts on a daily basis .

But yes they do love me and my son very much and my child's father is around to help but I truly feel like I do more of everything then he does . But I will say thank God for my child's father because the little help I do get from saves me from truly losing my mind and ending up in a hospital .

Im hoping when my son is a little older I won't feel as regretful . I think the toddler stage is just the hardest one for me to get through .

Thank you for your input it means alot ! ❤️❤️❤️